About You
You know the twinkle in your eyes
most people notice when you smile?
I see stars
and galaxies
and colour.
I’m often so preoccupied
with trying to describe them
that I lose track of what you’re saying.
Your eyes are blue
and grey
and silver
but more than that…
When I look in your eyes
I understand what people mean
when they say you can see emotions.
I can see
the sadness you conceal
with humour
I see the pain
hidden behind self-deprecating quips.
And I want to tell you
to be happy
to smile
to love
to be free
because I see beauty
in all of you,
where you see the parts
that have been broken.
I think they make you strong
and brave
and who you are.
You don’t have to be perfect
because really no one is
but to me
you are an angel
wings torn
broken
bloody
tears falling from your eyes
halo dirty and twisted.
Yet you care for others
You create love with your words
mending my heart
while cutting deeper
into your own.
You kiss my scars
and tell me
that my horns are beautiful
while reopening your own
beautiful scars
marks of having lived
a story, written on your body
words only you know
harsh
and unforgiving.
And I want to tell you
how important you are to me
but all that comes out
is “I love you”
and “You’re amazing”
Inadequate words
coming from a broken boy.
I can’t show you
how I love you
all of you
no matter what
I can only hope my words convey
the soft kisses I would give you.
I love you
I love your scars
old and new
seen and unseen
emotional and physical
Because I understand
how easy it is
to say someone deserves
the entire fucking world
while telling yourself
how worthless you are.
Trust me
I do it daily.
I cover my pain
with sarcasm
because I deserve it.
But if I deserve pain
why do you deserve happiness?
Because I fucking love you
I love your jokes
I love your personality
I love everything about you.
And I will spend
my entire life
telling you that
until you believe me.
I would die for you
without hesitation
I would stay up all night
to talk you out of suicide
or be an idiot to see you smile
I’ll give you little things
for no reason
because I care
and because
you
deserve
to
be
happy
you
dense
motherfucking
angel