It’s hard, It's hard to find your identity if you are the only black girl in the snow. Looking for children that look just like you, Kinky curls, melanin popping with extra vitamin D. From exploring destroyed houses and buildings with ashes on the concrete floor in Montgomery, (Alabama), to seeing young black teenages around my age working in food companies in Atlanta, Georgia to take care of their family, and hearing the sentence “ Where we going now? The black lake or the white?” in Galesburg, Illinois.  From Smelling the unbreathable air of cigarettes and alcohol in the hotel room in Las Vegas, Nevada.The Jim Crow law is mocking our identity like the crow who followed and copied me at the 24 bus stop at Irving Park in Portland, Oregon. Creating a world like a Yin Yang symbol to separate your white life from your black life. Being Black in Portland, Oregon is to live with constant confusion. And Attending an overwhelmingly white school from an early age creates a thought in your head: is it wrong to be too black or is it wrong to act too white?          To all my black girls in the snow, you are not alone. Growing up as a African-American female, and living in a white community creates two personalities: your white girl verse’s your black girl. We learned to code switch between Ebonics and Standard English really quickly at a young age. Didn’t know the difference between when to feel proud or when to feel insulted from racial stereotypes.They expect us to say “thank you” and smile towards an insult of my articulate language . Wait our articulate language, just because we have African descent in my blood, doesn’t mean we are uneducated. But, Being black in Portland Oregon creates a confusion about who your really are and who you pretending to be.         .To all my black girls in the snow, people can say we can act “too black,” like acting “too black” or “keeping it real,” is a way to say we are expressing our opinion in a rude, or ghetto, manner. Acting “too black” is an stereotype of an angry black woman who is on welfare, acting too black means you can’t hold a man, race police, or multiple baby daddies. Acting too black is to be known to sacrifice our electric bill for a new Coach bag.         To all my black girls, We once been told to  “stop acting white”, what do you mean stop acting white? Are you trying  to insult us in our black community, that no one would like to be called white, like losing our black card is losing our identity in the snow, like losing our blackness is our freedom, like losing our blackness is like becomings slaves again. “Acting white”, acting white is to speak with proper grammar, to have high education, and with beautiful long hair. But, why is being too black to be white, or too white to be black such a strong separation between the two? Being a Black girl in the white community makes us confused, we don’t belong in the black or white society, we are trapped between the two and we can’t find a standard ground. People who don’t understand could feel like I would go home and take off my white cap, and express my feelings in ebonics towards my friends and family, but right when I walk out the door to mgo my job, I would put on my white cap and hide my identity from the world. The assumption that I’m acting fake but being a female in the snow is who I am. I am naturally a code switcher. I’m not a stereotypical black person, and I'm not a black female who is pretending to be white. My white and black girl personality is not, mutually exclusive, like my white identity and my black identity is a separation between the two. I am who I say I am. I am mixed with coffee and a dash of vanilla stirring up a great taste in personality.      To all my black girls in the snow,  we do not straighten our hair, or lighten our skin tone by using makeup. We Embrace our black girl magic, because we are the many black girls in the snow. There is nothing wrong with speaking proper english and embracing our kinky curls. There is nothing wrong with loving school, or code switching from ebonics to standard english. There is nothing wrong with stirring your white identity and your black in a pot creating a new set of eyes on experiencing the world. We are who we say we are. We are the Black girls in the snow.