Confused
Last night, I saw a shooting star
It told me “Be exactly who you are”
But I don’t know who I am
Am I like Sarah, or like Sam
Confused and lost
What’s the cost
Of being myself
Or someone else
Mirrors do nothing more than reflect
So what should I really expect
When I’m alone
In what’s supposed to be a “safe zone”
Being judged on my past
How long am I going to last
My mind’s spinning
Are they winning
Am I emo, am I girly
Do I want my hair straight or curly
Am I short, am I tall
Hell, do I know myself at all
Do I like red, do I like blue
Do I have a fucking clue
Where’s my mind
I think it’s stuck in a bind
Between reality and fantasy
Can I sing, can I draw
Why do I focus on every flaw
I look left, I look right
But everything, is dark, like the night
I look down and see scars
People say “They’re part of who you are”
Am I nothing more than cutting
Why am I absolutely nothing
My tongue is tied
My soul has died
No matter how hard I try
Every night in the bed, I still cry
Push back the tears
For people are near
Don’t feel a thing
So that the alarm doesn’t ring
Other people won’t know
If how I feel doesn’t show
Keep it bottled up
Smile when people say “What’s up”
Smile and grin
Keep how I truly feel buried within
Mi'Ahni Brown