Demons and Angels
I’m not good with feelings
In fact I couldn’t tell you what I feel most of the time
What I can tell you is this
I am pessimistic and dark
I lost myself somewhere in that darkness
I made friends with my demons
The same demons that are constantly screaming inside of my head
The ones that scare me half to death
Because I am not fearless
In fact a lot of things absolutely shake me to my core
I am afraid because I know I can’t fight forever
My heart is being torn apart by the brutality of the world
The cruelty that humans show to other humans
My soul cries out for mercy as the darkness suffocates it
Inky tendrils that manage to dig their claws in so deep we can’t possibly dream of removing them
Broken people are tragically beautiful
They smile and go on acting like everything is fine
As long as they can get through one more day everything will be all right
It’s scary what a smile could hide
It’s heart wrenching to witness how the darkness warps those close to you
When they’ve become so damaged that when someone tries to give them what they deserve, they have no idea how to respond
However there will always be a light
Everything dark must have a counterbalance otherwise we wouldn’t be fighting so hard to live
You are all extraordinarily unique and effulgent
Never give up
Because your true friends will believe in you when nobody else does
They will be your rock, the shoulder you cry on, the ones to bring you back from the edge
Because you are always worth saving
After all, what defines us is how well we rise after falling
So when you feel that soul-crushing hopelessness
Remember that things always get better
There will always be people reaching for you hand
Take their outstretched hand and let them pull you back into the light
You are loved and cherished and wanted
That is what keeps me going
That gives me hope, making me believe that everything actually will turn out ok even if the world burns to the ground