Dear Brother

You’ve teased me,

Loved me,

Tormented me,

And taught me.

You’ve made me cry,

Laugh,

Yell and scream,

and smile,

All in the same day.

I hated you,

But only sometimes

And only as a thought

Not a real hate

A hate you have for the actions of others

Not the person themselves.

I loved you,

Always,

Unconditionally,

And forever.

Dear brother,

You left me.

I know why you left,

But I don’t understand

Why you won’t come back.

Three years.

Three years

I have waited

For you to walk through the front door

Like you have done

Every other time.

But you haven’t

And you choose not to.

I would rather you were gone

Because you had to be.

I hate that you left

By your own accord

And choose not to come back to me.

Dear brother,

I miss you,

I love you,

I wish you were here.

You need to come back to me,

To us, your family,

So we can be whole again.

But I know you won’t

You’ll stay away

Because you choose to.

I don’t blame you,

But I need you.

Here.

With me.

Dear brother,

Please come back

To me soon.