Different.

That's what they say it will be.

Different is like how doctors say you will feel a little pressure, 

when really it's pain.

When it ended, they said my life without him would be Different.

Nowhere under Different in the dictionary does it mention how

I would wake up in the middle of the night and for a split second 

think everything is how it should be.

Nowhere in the spaces between the nine letters 

does it show how you will see him 

and his eyes can show both happiness in his new life, 

and pity towards yourself.

Different is change, and change keeps life moving.

But I'd still choose an infinite 3 second loop with you for eternity, 

over the ability to have a different life without you.