Finding the most important thing
I’ll never forget
The day it all started.
Driving home,
I wasn’t excited to see you.
I didn’t really miss you;
Assuming it was nothing.
I’ll never forget
The call to my best friend.
When I admitted to questioning everything,
The day that started
The confusion.
The panic.
The fear.
The pain.
I’ll never forget
The feeling of going in circles.
Of not knowing what to do,
What was best;
What was best for you.
I’ll never forget
The day I pulled your sky down.
I sent a wrecking ball through your house,
The feeling of throwing four years away.
The moment I broke both our hearts.
I’ll never forget
The summer of misery.
The pain that weighed on my chest,
The rollercoaster of emotions.
My world was flipped upside down,
I was held together with duct tape.
But, more importantly,
I will never forget
The day I said five simple words:
It was all worth it.
In that moment,
I realized
I could breathe again.
The rollercoaster slowed down.
The world was right side up again.
I had ripped away the duct tape.
I realized
I finally broke out of the bubble I lived in.
My sky is brighter,
My heart is happier.
I realized
I finally put myself first.
I did what was best for me,
And I regret nothing.
I’m more outgoing.
Less anxious.
More confident.
Less afraid.
And much healthier.
I’ll never forget
The summer of heartbreak;
Pain I would never wish upon anyone.
But I’ll always know
It made me who I am today.
Sometimes it takes
Tearing apart everything seemingly perfect
To find the most important thing:
Me.