Forever
Dear You,
I was thinking about forever.
A forever with you…
A forever without walls up,
Just, a forever.
It was my “maybe someday”
Just for us.
When my walls crumbled,
You stood on the other side
Sledgehammer in hand and
Your angelic presence blinding.
So it didn’t matter that broken brick laid at my feet
Or the fact that my heart had moved to my sleeve
All that mattered was that you
were in front of me.
If only I had seen,
Our future ending badly.
Maybe then I would have savored
The fact that you stood so beautifully
I want that image burned into my mind
I just want a forever with you,
If only I had a clue
So I guess I should tell you
How my forever would go,
It’d be someday after school,
Someday where you’ve reached your dreams,
Where I’ve reached mine
But a someday where I come home
To you
Or a someday where you wake up
And I’m in our kitchen,
Making our breakfast and tea while I work on a grant proposal
And you have a rehearsal.
A someday where we have date traditions
A someday where I don’t relapse
Or maybe a someday where we can both be happy
A someday where we’d have a small studio in New York
Or a small house in a small town.
A someday where we’re together.
So I guess you can imagine
How much strength it took me
When you said you were going to hurt me
Sure, I knew it was true
But I would never let you know that.
But when you said we wouldn’t last
My heart broke.
You said maybe we’d end up together
Was there any other way to get my hopes up?
So this is for the forever.
The one that doesn’t exist.
But also for that one day.
Where I expect to see your face.
For the someday that we’ll meet again
And maybe share a kiss.
Even though you’ll hurt me,
I’ll live for that someday
The someday that just maybe,
it’ll just be you
and me.