A year ago around this time I had my first love, she was an absolutely stunning girl to me. She was the girl that helped me through my sadness as my brother was in jail, but she was also the one who put me into sadness. This girl was a beautifully minded individual who dreamed of one day going to Africa and helping as many people as possible so that she could make an impact, she wanted to become a pediatrician. She was passionate about her dreams and she had a sense of humbleness about it. A year ago I thought I had my life figured out in a way, I was doing great in school and had a plan for my future of becoming a lawyer. I've always wanted to be a lawyer since the 4th grade due to my brother telling me that I was the one who had the potential to help out my family. But then this girl came into my life and she gave me a whole different perspective on how to look at the world, she was always optimistic and happy no matter what the situation was and she is a strong individual who has been through a lot in her life. But one thing she had a passion for was doing good no matter what the situation was. This is what I believed was what i fell in love with, the idea that there is such an amazing person into this world that is amazing in every way possible, she was the definition of perfect to me. When she said that she had to leave for college to attend Liberty University in Virginia, I was afraid, afraid to lose someone so amazing. She knew that I wanted to attend UT Austin in Texas and go to hopefully law school so she decided what was best for the both of us, to break it off before it got serious. What she didn't know was that she was the first everything and that she was my everything. I loved her but she never loved me. I fell into a state of sadness because I questioned to myself why. What she was though was my first girlfriend because I never had one, but she was the first person I ever asked but she said no because she wanted to not see me suffering while she was away. We were so close to each other, we were so seemingly perfect for each other but it had to happen. This girl is the reason I want to become a Doctor now, she is the reason I have made a life change. She has shown me that there are many ways to improve myself and to help others along the way, honestly words can't describe how amazing this person was to me and she is the reason I am so motivated to become someone who helps others as much as possible in my lifetime. It's been about a year and ever since then I've joined an organization and help co create a club called then no more violence club to spread peace and I have began to volunteer at my local children's hospital in Dallas.The idea of love to me had changed and even though I'm young I do know that she was a very unique individual who had an amazing impact on my life. When I do become a doctor in whatever field I'll know who to thank as I bring joy and help to others.