I Forgive You Father
Dear Father,
You were there for my birth
At least I think you were
But that’s about it
You saw me growing up
But I would rarely see you
I never saw you at school performances
I never saw you in the afternoon
I only saw you in the form of money
As time passed as it always does
You only strayed further from my life
I grew older
I understood more
But I still needed you
I saw my mother crying
She fell into depression
I understood more
But did not understand this
Time passed once again
I grew older
I understood enough
Why was she crying?
It was you
Why didn’t I see you?
It was her
During those school performances
During those afternoons I never saw you
You were with her
Not only with her
But with her kids
They saw you in the in the afternoon
They saw you at their school performances
We were your so called family
But you were only there for them
You broke my mother
The strongest person I knew
You broke me
Was it something I did?
Were we not enough?
Apparently not
You were there for my birth
You were there for our wallet
But nothing else
As time continues to pass
I continue to grow
I continue to need you
I continue to learn
I learned to forgive
And father I want you to know I forgive you
I forgive you for all you did
I forgive you for all you did not do
I forgive you for all those school performances you missed
All I ask is to see you more
I just want you to be more than our wallet
I love you father despite all you did
Despite all you missed
I forgive you