I feel pain like a fire sword cutting through my skin
Resisting the tears with your name written all over,
As I look up towards the sky, the sun rays hitting my face almost as hard as you hit me
My eyes feel heavy, puffy like the clouds
As I look down on my skin, I see purple sores each with its own message
‘You’re ugly ‘
‘You’re worthless’
‘You’re nothing without me’
But he bought me roses and chocolate and I knew he was sorry.
A punch on my face, as I feel my teeth dislocate
As thick red liquids come splashing out of my mouth.
I fall to the ground,
I feel kicks on my back.
You shout the words
‘Stupid, Ugly, Inferior, Fat.
After a solid hard 10 minutes beating
I lay on the floor like a daisy tramped on the ground.
He comes back with a brand new watch kneeling next to me as he whispers
‘It’s because I love you, I care, I don’t want to loose you,
I love you he says.
I knew he was sorry.
He pours water in the tub, with red roses inside.
Places a thick red wine almost as thick and red as the gore I bled.
He says “Take off your clothes, I’ll be gentle I promise.”
With the stare of not giving me a choice to say no, I do so.
The water feels warm on my skin I wish I could’ve stayed there forever.
Being gentle like he said, he helps to wash the blood away leaving the bruises to stand out.
He washed it all leaving the words permently stuck on me.
Stuck tight as a glove.
His hand slid down,
A throbbing pain followed as 
He told me to keep quiet and it will all soon be over.
He then grabbed me, told me to get out and lie on the bed like a good girl
I did as I was told, closing my eyes.
I could feel him breathing in my ear
His sweat dripping on my skin
My heart skipped a beat
I felt like 20 needles entered me at a time, and more gore came splashing out
He took one long deep breath as he said the words
“You can go take your shower now, I’m done”
I could feel the pieces of my heart drop beneath my lungs
But the next day he bought me a car
I knew he was sorry.
He knelt down opened an old looking box
But to my surprise a crystal ball shined upon my face, shimmer and sparkles
He slowly said the words I never thought he’d say
“Would you marry me?”
And I said what he didn’t want to hear
“No, I couldn’t, I needed time"
I could see the pain in his eyes as he told me to take the car for a spin
I remember the softness of the seats, the brand new smell.
But then I could smell paraffin and I knew that something wasn’t right,
Flames of fire started to appear in front of me,
I tried opening the door and it never opened
He stood there watching me, shedding every tear I could
That moment I could see my life flashing before my eyes, my eyes felt like they were going to melt of the heat,
I suffocated, burnt to death as he stood there watching me.
I still thought I was stupid for loving him and more stupid that I didn’t hate him
But answer me this
Was he ever sorry? – D E S T I N A T I O N .