But I don't believe

in love, exceptions or

meaning, don't see me

as beautiful or redeemable

I've never felt so close to

death, dress me in a fur

coat and send me down

a river, I will undress myself,

burdened by snowflakes

buried under the ice, my

heart is stone, I dived

to sink, I've never felt

like such an outsider

and I am sorry that I've

lived, nothing matters

I could kill to get away

or kill just to kill, nothing

matters, no one's here

with me anyway.