I’m here, don’t you know that? I know you feel the pain and you think that no one understands what is going on in your head and what happens to your skin, but I love you and I will always be here. Family ruins your days, friends hurting you with names and the ignoring you and acting like it’s your fault, hiding in your room and trying to get away from all the pain that they bring you, just know that I am here and I’ll never leave you and I’ll listen to you until the pain go away. Look at me in the eyes, I’ll promise that everything will be alright. We are all in this fight, though the night may be dark a new day brings new light. Just hold my hand, come close and I’ll keep you safe from the things around you. You are a Rose surrounded  thorns.

You look at the mirror, seeing all the supposed flaws you have saying repeatedly to yourself,” I’m fat, I’m ugly, I’m not worth anyones time because I’m not what people want me to be.” Everyday I tell you are the opposite of what people say you are, to me you are a warm ray of sunshine bring beauty and color in my life. Somedays may be cloudy because others my bring you down, call you things that you are not and bringing those cursed tears to your eyes. The thing I want you to know and to keep deep within you are, though some days it may be difficult to understand but remember this. Don’t let’em say you ain’t beautiful, Oh they can all get fucked just stay true to you. You may see imperfection when you look at yourself, but I see the most perfect girl in my eyes.

When we call at night, talking about the things that happened throughout the day, making jokes and laughing at each other for all the randomness that happens when we talk, those are the memories I hold the closest to my heart and cherish the most in life. You are so full of energy and life it’s the most amazing thing in the world to see you laughing so much and having fun just talking to me. We talk all night, everything bad that has happen seems just to melt away in the middle of the night and that’s when we are the happiest my beautiful angel. I never want this to end and I make it my duty to keep you happy mood the best I can and make all the bad things disappear away. We’re feeling as good just the way that we do when it’s nine in the afternoon. When it’s time to go to bed, we say our goodnights and how much we love each other, laying in bed wishing that we can still be together as we drift off into our slumber.

Here comes a thought that my alarm me, what someone said, and how it harmed me. Something that I did that failed to be charming, things that I said that are suddenly swarming. I know that sometimes I mess up and it happens more that I wish it would, but I want you to know that I will always come back, make things better and learn from my mistakes. Take a moment to think of just, flexibility, love and trust. I want you to be able to trust me and not have to worry about me leaving for some odd reason and just hurt you when I vowed to love and protect you the best I possibly can. Know this, my love for you hasn’t deminished, but has grown every day for you my lovely angel.

Most couples have that song that explains their relationship with each other, most of the time it’s the most cheesy love songs that we just sit back and laugh at because their are the typical songs. Ours is part of an genre of music that we listen to all the time and we connect the best with because it explains how we feel and knowing that we are not alone who feel the way that we do. So take your hand in mine, it’s ours tonight. This is a rebel love song. Hearts will sarifice it’s do or die, This is our rebel love song. We don’t go by what other people think we should, we go by what we feel like, making it our job to prove others wrong about us and tell them this is our rebel love and no one can stop us.

In your past, you have experience things that no person should experience and have to go through alone because your family was the cause of most of it and a past relationship that ended in such a bad way that it left you in so many ways, mentally and physically. Let me be the one to light a fire inside those eyes, you’ve been so lonely. Most is the people who were supposed to be there for you let you all alone, trapped inside your mind and leaving you wanting to get rid of the emotional pain, so you turned to physically get the pain to go away. Let me be the one to lift your heart up and save your life. I don’t think you even realize, baby you’d be saving mine. I have told you my darkest secrets and how it affected me, scared of how you would think of me, but when you told me you don’t love me any less, I was overjoyed about the fact that you still loved me.

Somedays when I am trapped in my own head, I think about all the good times we have had together, from the long walks down by the river, splashing each other and playing in the sand, to watching Keeping Up With the Kardashians and seeing the stupidity of it. We have so many good times because Baby you’re the shit girl, lovin’ you could be a crime. Crazy how we fit girl, this is it girl. Give me 25 to life.

You are my savior, when I have told you about the dark and bad things I have done before I met you I thought you would look at me differently, that the love we have built would just seem to crumble and be as though it was never there. You flipped that on me, you cupped my face when I had tears streaming down my face crying like a little baby, pulled my close and kissed the top of my head and cuddled me close to you. You sat there for so long was wondering what I still had inside, the floodgates brusted and everything came with it, after it was all over you told me something that has stayed in my head and heart, telling me you still loved me no matter what, as long as I don’t do that stuff anymore and that I would never cheat on you and disrespect you. Will our stars ever align?Will two hearts, beat in time? These words you should always remember, To you, my heart I surrender. Chasing love that can never be mine. Maybe one day you'll realize. These words you should always remember, To you, my heart I surrender

How the hell did you ever pick me? Honestly, I could sing you a song But I don't think words can express your beauty. It's singing to me How the hell did we end up like this?

You bring out the beast in me I fell in love from the moment we kissed Since then we've been history hey say that love is forever. Your forever is all that I need Please stay as long as you need

Can't promise that things won't be broken But I swear that I will never leave Please stay forever with me.I love you for who you are, from the first day I met you all the way up til now. You brought so much happiness and you showed me what love could feel like, beyond my family and forming a long lasting relationship. I love you so much and that will never change. I love you so much Victoria Marie Johnson.