Letting Down the Mask

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97502
United States
42° 24' 29.2896" N, 122° 57' 41.5872" W

I'm sorry I look this way,
I'm sorry I'm so empty,
I'm sorry I'm not the happy child you raised,
I'm sorry I let down the mask...

I hide behind my mask,
Because I know you won’t understand...

You asked me to smile and I smiled,
even though I'm dying inside,
dying and crying,
I still smiled for you...

I hide behind my mask,
Because I am afraid of what you will do if I confess...

I am your obedient slave,
soulless and hollow,
with my mask of smiles...

The mask is gone and shattered now,
just like my soul has been for so long,
but you didn't notice,
now did you?
How could you?
with my mask of smiles...

I'm sorry I wasn't good enough,
I'm sorry I let you down,
I'm sorry I couldn't be all there,
I'm sorry I let down the mask...

You say this isn't me,
you say I'm happy,
you tell me to smile,
and I put back my broken mask of smiles...

I put back on my mask of smiles,
even though it kills me just a little more each time,
but it keeps you happy,
so clueless and happy...

So I'm sorry for when you find me,
a pool of blood surrounding me,
with my mask still smiling,
smiling for you,

I'm sorry I never truly showed you the face beneath the mask...

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