Listen To My Heartbeat**

Bump bump bump bump I cant feel anything. I cant feel my heart. Its too far away, so-as I reach for it, I fall, as I hurt, I crawl Bump bump bump bump Isolation. Im trying to hear my heart beat. See my chest move Setting and achieving goals , doing everything I can just to lose my pain. So thats its forgotten, even though it keeps me writing, pain doesnt relieve stress PAUSE Deep breath Bump bump bump bump Fast pace but my heart is in its place far away, heartache as I sleep imagining My chest move Bumpbumpbumpbumpbumpbump Verbalizing my confusion; choosing to dig myself into a hole Just to succeed in finding my way out, to later find out I left my heart behind. Bump bump Sunk the more I sink, stuck the more I think, awake, while I dream, knowing all hearts are on a team- against me BUMPBUMPBUMPBUMPBUMPBUMPBUMPBUMP Understanding my internal pain, my dysfunctional heartbeat, the stars I cant see, deceit I lied to my friend, the water I cant feel, the person i cant be, the hurt that I can't heal. Because I'm different. Just trying to understand what joy feels like I've been through so much pain And I've caused even more To that friend that reads this I guess I'm pleading for forgiveness Though I've been forgiven I went back On a promise I made on my soul So my spirit has been missing Yet I still indulge into what I feel Is love. I'm trying to understand what joy feels like. Bump bump bump bump.. And I will bumpbumpbump try to find out Bump-bump Until i die Bump............ Bump............. Bump............. *flatline*

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