Musical Sanctuary
I am lost and all alone
But I feel it
Once again I’m just a blown out candle
But I feel it
There are tears dripping down my face
But I feel it
My heart is beating faster than the train during rush hour
But I feel it
The worst has come and I can’t bear another second of this over dramatic and ever too intensive world
But I feel it
My mind is racing and my hands and body are going numb
But I can barely hear it
My life feels like it could come to an end right here and now with all this pain I am carrying
But I can almost hear it
My heart is pounding faster and faster and my ears are tuning in as a slight hum trickles its way into my brain
I think I can hear it
I might have made the biggest mistake known to all living creatures that ever walked this planet
But I hear it
My senses are tingling and my eyes are starting to flutter
My mind is unsure if it should come back to reality or stay in this life numbing moment of sadness
But
My hands are starting to move and my hips are beginning to sway
My feet are joining in and tapping to the rhythm
My whole body is coming alive as the sound fills the room
My senses want to join in and contribute like there’s some kind of celebration
I CAN HEAR IT
I CAN FEEL IT
Suddenly I am filled with joy
I want to laugh
I want to scream
I want to shout from the top of every roof in this whole city
I want to sing
I want to smile
I don’t understand why
I don’t understand how
I don’t understand when
I don’t understand where
But the music fills my whole self with a symphony of happiness and lifts my soul
Nothing else matters except the music that is playing and the sounds that fill the room
Music is my sanctuary
My flame has been ignited once more
I can hear it
And
I am Happy