My Tender Beast
In times when fairy tales begin
In times like never after
A girl of highest, modest kin
Appeared with an enchanting laughter
She lived alone, estranged from all
Of wits and virtues many
The mightiest of stars will want to fall
On Earth, to meet her, very
Beneath a dark, majestic field
She walks, her feet abating
And from afar, a heart was sealed
By her; a distant boy awaiting
He gazes at her distant rays
Illuminated by her love
Though he is far, his soul’s ablaze
Engulfed by lust thereof
He sees her now, he sees her then,
He holds inside a feeling
Of want, of need, had to rethink again
He eyes her gorgeous beaming
Next day, his elbows touching
The ground before the seas
His soulmate’s glaze he’s clutching
In his mind, the time to freeze
He wakes up to a couple questions
Of Why? Why no one else? Why her?
And thus he made confessions
To himself; the answers were a blur
May it be other’s admiration?
No, he felt beyond this detail
Her reputation, adoration?
A reasoning unlike prevailed
Such little known he knew for sure
Beyond, he could not comprehend
Her smile, though, him shall allure
And so, he tried to understand
He tries to dream, to see, to let
His imagination fly as loose
As any captured bird which fled
From its captivity, its wings to use
And he listens and trembles and
Still craves for her love more
And as quick as lightning he
Plunges into his adore
He swims and sinks and concentrates
On reaching the abyss
For there he tries and hopes to find
The answers to his graceful bliss
The waters, while as dark as his
Life without his love
Appealed and drew him in
Like Aphrodite to doves
And his elegant eyes’ gleam
Chimerically deep
Prove two deprived and hungry agitations
That into but dark peep
As he reached the end of his long journey
Intrigued by what he’ll find
He suddenly starts staring
At a light, making him blind
Approaching it as such
With caution but long admiration
His body starts to shake and tremble
His fear beyond any cessation
His ears are pounding to the beat
Of Greeks approaching Troy
His mouth was dry, his lips dry too
But his eyes still full of joy
For what he saw before him
Was the grandest of the world
A paradise, a haven
His toes and arms had curled
And so he entered Eden’s Garden
And joyfully complied
To nature’s laws, ethereally happy
A mighty oak he eyed
He picked a place to sit
And euphorically engulfed
His mind and body in the forest
Thus peace through his veins pulsed
And to the tree he said
“What is this place? Why am I here?”
Confusing life and dream
Hoping he would get an answer…
That all of this is real
The tree’s life suddenly
Abating from its still
Looks down, then up, and all around
Attempting to resolve the boy’s yearning ill
“From your sphere hardly come you to
Understand my call and see
Beyond your world, a haven
Your life is here carefree
“So, now, that you have shown
Your lively corpse to me
You shall close your eyes and see
What you’ve been looking for
“I’ll open up to you at last
Depict in greatest deal
Your reasoning behind your lust
Behind your greatest feel”
In a palace of corale
He saw innumerable floors
Filled with people, rooms, and doors
With fairly ghostly corridors
Beyond such sombre first impression
He entered one such room
Where, in the heat of a debate
Milton Friedman’s ears would fume
His burning soul would penetrate
The every last of leftists, all
And show the world his passion
And Keynesians his grand appall
These matters such intrigued the boy
As he could not reveal
To friends of his, at home, such matters
Or blurt away some spiel
Which no one but the people
In that room would understand
Who would even bother to divert
His argument, his thinking to amend
Thus, he sat down
Bewildered by the men
Who sat in front of him and talked
About the economic state again
Continuing his little journey
Through ports of beauty, soul and fibers
Through gates of gold, of knowledge, of Chi culture
And libraries with modern scribers
He passed by research labs
And focused men in bright white robes
By geeks,by nerds, and some computer dorks
A mini cannon which balls lobes
So very many people
Such large amounts of hustle, bustle, and the dealing
With physics, science, economics
Seemed scary, yet in many ways appealing
Life never seemed on pause
In the Windy City, this land of Oz
His Emerald City, the magic touch
To an exciting future which Chi would be the cause
Outside, the snow was white
As pure and clear as this boy’s mind
As graceful as the girl he loved
More innocent than all mankind
And thus he knew, this was his home
This was the place he oh so yearned for
His whole life, the missing part
From a perfect life, oh how he wanted more
And out he went, he went, deep down
Loving an enchanting dream he forged
He plucked himself out from his life and
Closed his eyes, his old home disgorged
The dream was true but for a second
For the morning alarm has rung
Time for school, reality has struck
Time to counter life’s beat of the same old song
Today he was to ask
His love for him to take
With open arms and heart
This want he could not shake
As he envisioned now
His future with his better half
He came to the conclusion
He couldn’t shout another laugh
He couldn’t mouth another word
He couldn’t write another gaffe
In his memoir; her name is all he heard
And so, he pleads to ask her for acceptance
For willingness to give a chance
To a relationship with much potential
To something which even at first glance
Of perfection seems quintessential
And now he walks his life’s first plank
So unknown is the end ahead,
It’s all alright, he mutters in his head
He’s shown to like the rush of the unknown,
.
.
And with the deepest breath, hits send