She tried to kill herself tonight.

I know why she did that. 

She's depressed and was drinking and everything just built up and then. . .

Boom.

On the way to the hospital

She said she wanted to sleep forever.

To forget everything that's ever hurt her 

(believe me there is plenty for her to forget)

And to leave all her pain behind.

And my first thought,

My first selfish thought,

Was that she is the only person

Who understands my pain

And if she had succeeded

I would be alone again.

For that

I have no explanation.