Old cat calls and ethanol teeth

the cat calls

sex calls her

the enemy is calling and she answers every time

she hears me never, she listens always, anyways

she is ready to leave here 

ready to pack her bags and her sins and flee, and fly, and move

get these diseases off of her

let her breath, let her speak, let her live

six months ago last week and-and she did not know until this morning

mind quarantined

gets difficult with his touch soused all up her shoulders  and his back, her breath

he calls this beautiful

but she smiles so that's all that matters if he can roll over and smile at her

this is her first time here

and don't nobody know how  much she loved the way he watched these grandfather memories,

blackness in his cup her father in him the way they roll their tongues when they write or drink

articulating about beautiful he has drenched himself in her 12-14 years of waiting

she was the youngest , the biggest, the most profound and fine

she bathes her self in self determined confidence

he has named her and she listens

but she knows that it is to late to be

considering ward-ship

his chronic conditions hand-in-hand with her heart hand-in-hand with what everyone else is doing

but no one is jealous of

there is no sleep after this

she cannot white water wash these sins

or rock them back to what she loves 

what she hates

she is angry

but it is much too past time to be considering barriers

quarantined minds that don't believe this can happen to them

it happened to her

now she sits , wondering and weeping about how to tell this boy- these men, that her last lover forgot his indisposition

favored his indisposition and left it here

to feast on her sanity

poisonous her fight 

why- why would she bear babies only to genocide drench her insides

its 50/50, or 50% or a chance or possibility death is calling so, she cant remember

sex is calling so she must keep holiness stayed on her thoughts

holiness stayed on her heaven

she is too stubborn to see the grace clothed in her sickness 

God has plans for her stubbornness and this being sick

his favor has been on her

but she is too sick to see it