What If
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people dont understand
i wake up and feel drained
i dont want to get out of bed
i dont want to turn on the light
i dont want to wake up
and socialize
people i see on the daily
they look at me
and laugh
and point
and condemn me
without knowing me
without knowing the person i am
they heard a rumor
they heard a story
they heard a lie
and they assume
but they dont know
assumptions arent facts
assumptions lack tact
lack reality
because i am not an assumption
i am a person
i am the only one who knows me
i am the only one who knows the facts
but those assumptions make me feel dreadful
they make me look at the mirror and feel appalled at what i see
what if people do understand
what if i deserve the drained feeling in the morning
not wanting to get out of bed
not wanting to illuminate my room
not wanting to wake up
and socialize
what if i am the one that doesnt understand
who i really am
what if the rumor is true
what if the story wasnt a lie
what if