What Went Wrong?

I don’t know what is wrong with him.

Ever since the party, he’s been strange.

As he walked in I whispered his name “Tim,”

“I feel like an animal in a cage.”

 

He looked at me very odd.

“What happened at the party?”

His face turned pale then whispered, “oh my god”.

“It was a mistake, I’m sorry!”

 

I clenched my fists, my fingernails digging into my skin.

“How could I have been so dumb?”

All I can think about is what happened then.

Now all I feel is numb.

 

“Who am I to control your life and what you like and what makes you grin.

It’s not like like been loyal this whole time, oh wait I have been.”

How could he have cheated on me, with someone I thought was my friend.

He tried to talk but I kept screaming and crying then eventually he went.

 

That night was the longest of them all

My room was my safe place I had been there since he left this afternoon staring at the ceiling.

Here I was still awake at almost 4 in the morning feeling like I got hit with a snowball.

Left with my own thoughts and feelings.

 

I turned off my phone and threw it on the pad

The only noise was the music in my headphones and my doubt.

I was done being angry now I was just sad,

I wanted to cry but no tears came out.

 

When I woke the next morning I heard a knocking at my bedroom and I smelt the great smell,

Oh, how the smell of bacon could cheer me up.

I thought it was you there to apologize, but no just my sister named Michelle.

She had brought me breakfast that my dad made adding syrup.

 

Eggs and bacon, my favorite, my dad always knew when I was going through a hard time.

He could always make me smile no matter how sad I was he always knew what to do,

I loved him way more than I could love any boy or person in my whole lifetime,

I thank god for him every day because without him my life would be one big zoo.

 

After I finished breakfast I thanked my dad and sister for making me feel better and took a shower.

By the time I got out my dad had gone to work and my sister went to the movies with friends.

So I went to Tim’s house so maybe we could figure out this blur,

To discuss how we could make amends.

 

I walked in the door unlocking it with the key he gave me for our one year.

I was going to surprise him so maybe we could make each other feel better

But when I opened his door I froze, I felt my heart stop, my brain unclear,

I couldn’t move, it felt like I got hit with a dagger.

 

Within a second I was down the stairs sprinting out

How could he have another girl over watching movies like a psycho

I was so mad I could scream and shout!

I ran home as fast as my legs would allow me to go.

 

The next thing I remember is my dad coming in the living room and he just held me while I cried

We stayed there all night,

I was worried someone would see me but remembered after her movie Michelle said starry-eyed she was gonna spend the night with her “knight”.

 

All I can see is them wrapped in blankets watching tv amused,

He just stared at me he didn’t even bother to come after me.

I don’t know what I want or what I expected I’m so lost and confused,

Do I want to be with him he obviously doesn’t care about me?

 

My dad made my favorite meal

Pasta with sauce and grilled chicken on top and we talked and I told him everything even though he pretty much know the whole story since my sister had heard the whole ordeal.

But I'm ok I don’t need a guy in my life to be ok and grow.

 

This poem is about: 
Our world

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