When I wanted to die
One year ago I wanted to die
I was sick
And very , very tired
Thrown between mania and sadness
Hyperactivity and depression
Ecstacy and numbness
When I was high I could reach the peaks of mountains
My brain would race
Creating works of art that only a genius could
Ideas were clearer, crisper
I was above the human race
Without need for rest
Energy never dying
Hungar never waning
Heart always beating
Until it all came to a halt
The euphoria was replaced with numbness
My brain filled with cotton
Time slowed down
My senses were dulled
I could only cry or sleep
Or carve my emotions into my arms
My legs
My neck
One year ago I thought I wanted to die
Some days I still do
But I am different
Now I have hope
Dreams and goals I wish to achieve
I have a reason to live