Every Day of school was another day of loneliness

Always seeing other couples in each other’s caress

Passing by the same scene every day

But I knew that love would not come straight away

 

Constantly surrounded by the same faces

Never being exposed to any new places

I thought that I would never find someone to take on a date

Believing that love would just come to me late

 

However, it was a new school year

New classes, but I had the same fear

I was scared that others would not accept me

Asking for help from my friends about my personality

 

They always provide me the reassurance needed

Almost enough to make me start to feel conceited

The words are not enough to boost my confidence

It was all due to my incompetence

 

Classes end and I would walk to the tree

Friends of friends were all over the place, but this many people wasn’t my cup of tea

I ignored the new faces continued by

But something managed to creep by the corner of my eye

 

All my focus narrowed on her, and my knees weakened

But I knew that I couldn’t approach her so I just tried to pretend

My mouth spoke towards one way, but my eyes stayed on her

Her eyes met mine and all I could do was deter

 

Millions of thoughts would fill my head

But all I knew was that she didn’t really care and I was just misled

Only the negative thoughts would stay

It was only supposed to be a regular wednesday

 

The thing that I thought of only as infatuation

Would become nothing more than just an augmentation

Days pass by and my eyes would continuing to meet hers

But never experiencing “love”, I was a complete amatauer

 

She was my only salvation

I obviously had a fixation

My friends found my emotions very clear

But I still couldn’t talk to her due to my overwhelming fear

 

This crush was nothing but one-sided

But I couldn’t help but feel that her feelings were just as divided

Egged on by my friends to go and converse

I just felt that our worlds were just too diverse

 

I started slow by making friends online

Starting conversations slowly, but every minute felt divine

Even if our talks only went as far as a hi and how was your day

My emotions were clear giveaway

 

Time passes by as the gap between us tightens

My love for her was real, so real that it frightens

Everyone knew my feelings, and I was sure that so did she

But I the way that she felt bad was something that I could not foresee

 

It would’ve been soon near a year since we started talking

But the way that it all ended was too shocking

Through this time I knew that I changed

My shyness my fears all turned into something deranged

 

Through all this experience I became someone new

I was no longer afraid, no longer needing any peer review

I walked on my own two feet and gained the confidence

Now it was time for me to thank her and close that distance

 

We finished school and I called her out to talk alone

I had let my feelings for her be known

I suspected that she had already found out

But this wasn’t the time to holdout

 

Knowing I might face rejection

All I wanted for her to know was my affection

She helped shape me into the person that I am today

This would open to me a clear pathway

 

She walks up to me and we talk like normal

I get to the point and started to become more formal

My emotions come pouring out piece by piece

All the sweet words complimenting her could’ve made her obese

 

She had a sad look on her face

And I already knew from the beginning, that this was my place

She apologized and hugged me

But I didn’t feel sad, I gained more than I lost, if anything I felt more free

 

All the pressure on my chest was gone

And with our feelings known we just carried on