There were three of you that broke my heart: Uno, Dos, and Tre.
When I was thirteen,
I knew exactly who
I was going to marry.
He would be tall,
with black hair
and even blacker eyes.
He would be my protector.
It feels like I’ve never been alone before.
Obviously I have, but that was so many years ago.
I grew comfortable, you were a huge part of my life.
Although, you were the part of my life that held me back.
there was silence.
You were just a memory.
Reckless love, goodbye.
Awaken my sweet, whole soul:
All my love you stole.
I murdered you.
I made absolutely sure.
I jammed the knife right through
The piece of my heart
In which you had chosen to dwell.
It's alright, I justified,
The act was clearly self-defense,
Papered Love Poem
1 more and peace.
Half over half, color side up.
1 more and peace.
I remember when realized,
Our favorite song was the same.
I felt like you had looked at me,
And seen right through my brain.
You hold my face while kissing you,
Your eyes they look so deep.
Thanks to you
I was left feeling blue.
You finally gave me a chance
To get out of your trance.
Thanks to you
I was left without a "how-to"
I didn't know how to move on
Well, your arms are strong as tides,
But you sway her like the wind
You breathe me in like ocean currents,
And if you see me again,
You won't see me smiling
And if I see you again,
Why is it that I can sense a snake in the grass and will run in the opposite direction
but when I felt you inching closer and closer to me I watched you like a National Geographical special, a child mesmerized by the carnival rides
There are minimal downsides to being a Poet,
But one of the few is that it's difficult to simultaneously be One
As well as the girl you want me to be.
It's difficult becuase we'll be in English class,
This year has passed just like all the others
It's last moments a whisper, before it joined it's brothers
On his deathbed, I spoke to my old friend
While we both knew that he would never mend
Look down at your finger,
What do you see?
A little piece of plastic
Painted purple- your ring.
A plastic ring from a vending machine?
That's what it may appear to be.
It has a different meaning,
I am loved by a prince
With not so many riches.
His castle is not silver nor gold,
Or the most precious of stone.
He doesn't have rubies or sapphires
But a heart made of gold
I saw love clearly.
He was tall and skinny
With soft brown hair.
He turned and kissed me with a blush.
I saw his beautiful, kind gray-blue eyes and pale skin.
I'm a girl who loves boys, tall,dark and intelligently handsome.But my heart isn't a toy, I'll beat your face in and then some.I'm single, young and secretly waiting for cupid.But come in with that BS, I'm gonna slay you 'cause, I'm.not.STUPID.I d
Never have I ever been so happy
Warning: this poem may be really sappy
Goodness, I love you
The way you sometimes look at me
Like I am all you can see
When you smile and your eyes twinkle
His hair spills around his face like a halo of curls His eyes are dark and careless and captivating They are black holes and I am falling, falling in His laugh sounds like a waterfall Rushing out Spilling out When he laughs his whole body laughs S
Today is the day
I have a date today
With a guy who just seems great
He is just like me in countless ways
We have the same order at Subway
Lies are what you told
Over and over again, they never got old.
Very soon I was under your spell,
Eventually I was in Hell.
Let's pretend for a second
That your compliments I no longer questioned.
That I truly believed you
And know all those things to be true.
Lets pretend for a minute
July 22 2016
I never thought that I would cross the colour line
It wasn’t about being pro Black it was about being pro Love
He had been poison in her veins
And she was insanity to his brain
They made each other sick
Whether it was the with love kind
Or felt bonded to a contract they'd signed
Knotted by promises
I enjoy literature, comic books,
And nerdy T.V. shows.
I like to swim, dance, hike, and draw.
My name is Ariel.
Love is like on coming traffic, you have no control over it. You don't know what is going to happen next or how it will impact you.
Teasing me all day, driving me crazy in your special way.
Now the anticipation is driving me crazy I can hardly wait.
Finally the time has come for us to be as one.
As I layhere in bed waiting for you,
He made everything better
I don’t know how he did it and I don’t think he did either
He could help me through anything
"I hope you always find a reason to smile. "-Anonymous
In the events that occurred
I hope you find what you've been missing
You’d been with her for eight years.
And you wonder why I can’t always be with you emotionally.
eight years is nothing to a couple months.
She knows everything about you and she was your whole world for eight years.
I’d try to find you in the stupidest places,
I’d be watching a movie and find you,
I could find you in the street lights,
or reflecting off the lake,
or in the smoke that pours out of my cigarette,
They stopped saying goodbye.
The kisses, laughs, and shared moments disappeared without warning.
“I found someone else,” she whispered.
“I know,” he said back.
She got up and left.
Bam bam! One fist after the other. Pow pow! One too many hits.
First came love like a roaring fire,
Burning intensely with flames only getting higher.
The roses were bought out of a love so deep.
I stayed up all night missing precious sleep.
My heart was a sacred garden. Your stare was the rich soil. Nurturing kisses became the water. Your voice was my everlasting sunshine. My lilacs began blooming into purple rays. Illuminating. Glowing. Weeping. Falling.
When you first met me, I was lost, depressed and confused.
I was broken, completely done and feeling oh, so used.
But none of that seemed to matter to you.
For you took me in your arms, and told me you felt that way too.
Another smile, another tear,
Another kiss, a lot more fear,
Another hit, nothing is clear,
Another memory that will last for years.
Another heart that has been broken,
Another wound that has been opened,
Kisses and cuddles and giggles and joy,
These are the wonderful things that come from this boy.
He's ever so kind and gentle and sweet,
And he is always sweeping me off of my feet.
You say that you only want someone for Summer
and it ends when fall comes with change of color
Oh darling do you see my face?
and I can't stand to let it go to waste
My love , we are but like two doves
You creep into my mind
And it's like I can't be sane without you.
You kept me high all the time.
Your touch was so intoxicating.
All I want is to have you in my arms again
And hear your voice next to my ear.
All you do is hurt me.
Your actions are evil and so are you.
I don’t know if I’ll ever be free.
You are so abusive and beastly.
Before you date somebody with amental illness, you must rememberthat calling them beautiful willnot adjust their brain's chemicallevels. Sweet words do not reversesickness that plagues the mind
Putting her on a pedestal makes you a fool.
Lust only lasts for so long, so take time for yourself so you don't get stuck in the wrong.
Return to your interests instead of what controls you.
My hunger survives off your belligerent smile, as it puts the blazing sun up in my sky
It's those nonsensical possibilities you whisper which floods my being with your eyes
How do you know
When you’ve outlived
I’ve always been distant
Never right in front of you
If I weren’t anchored to this body
I didn't love you normally,
I love you,
Like I am an artist that for you
Can only draw a smiley face in fogged up glass
I love you like cheesy romance movies and rainy days.
Everyone on earth has heard it before
It's a new car alarm
Or a knock at your door
A story so old they found it carved in stone
With all of the scrolls
And neanderthal bones.
Part I. They Fell In
I cannot understand you
The way you make my chest shorten
And the way all this furniture of our lives came about
Opening the balcony door
The wind gushes, whipping thru my hair
My ball grown beautifully swaying
My heart pounding, what are you saying?
Looking out over the terrace
Down at the lights of Paris
BAE means before all else. Its a term of endearment used by teens.
There once was a time when you came into my life
We were once just a friend, teasing each other with playful remarks
And giving witty comebacks to each other’s responses.
A vast, endless green field
Overwhelms me with its beauty
The soft, billowing breeze won't yield
How I wish you were here with me
Flowers of ev'ry hue
Dance so slowly to the wind's beat
You know the twinkle in your eyes
most people notice when you smile?
I see stars
I’m often so preoccupied
Her cheeks were flushed
Her lips, a curve
Her heart, how it rushed
Better than I, she deserved
I was gravel under her feet
She was a rose in the park
I was sand in the street
I never had the chance to touch your skin but just from looking at it I could tell it was smooth
looking like just my kind of troubleoverworn jeansthreadbare t-shirtholding a pen like a cigarettehalf a smirk for all who lookedhair too long, nails too shortyou told a joke and the
Weary and teary eyed
Wearing his cologne unwilling
Wanting to escape his grasp
Willing myself to move on
Wanting to escape the memories
Wearing my own name
Weary from my fight
do you miss me
do you think of me
Do you even know who I am inside?
Did you stop to look deep into my eyes?
How could you not know, how can you not see,
In everything you do what it does to me.
When we were first together it was all so unclear.
I wanted you so badly, but all I knew was fear.
Then you held me in your arms and whispered in my ear.
I don't know what to do anymore,
I've tried so hard to save us,
I've given you everything I have,
I'm all yours,
But are you all mine,
I can feel us drifting,
It was by chance I stumbled
into the fierce lions terrain
and he looks like all the rest
with large claws, sharp teeth, and his mane
Instinct readied my legs to run
She said she'll think of whitty jokes
just to show that it's not all smoke.
She said she'll think of interesting facts
but the fact is that the pact was supposed to be
that she would go on a date with me.
When you truly in love Someone age doesn't matter .
weather it 2 yrs , 5 yrs ,10 yrs ,15 yrs or 30 yrs love is love
A TRUE relationship isn't about the age , height, weight, or the distance
You say you want to date me, but I think you might hate me
And when you hear what I speak, I think you might just agree
I'll give you 3 reasons, just listen, you'll see
Oh, I've got no problem eating alone.
Make no mistake--
I can eat what I want when I want it.
I can think how I
look like I
go where I want.
I can see whom I please,
Say what I mean,
So I took a deep breath and asked her name
And she said hi, my name is kate
And I said hello But I knew she wouldn’t let me go
Cuz some people connect immediately
and other split immaculately but I know
Say no, say no, say yes, say yes.
No- to abuse. It's not necessary, not right.
Twenty-eight percent are in an intimate relationship!
Ninety-eight percent of offenders- aren't punished!
When he wraps his arms around me,
I am in a sleeping bag on a mountain,
Peaceful and shielded from the breeze.
When he tells me that he loves me,
I am listening to soft, beautiful music
The first time you told me I was beautiful,
You took my hand, laid my bones in perfect sync with yours, and
Led me into the backyard hung beneath stars dangling on comet tails
Another world inside of me
That no one else will ever see
Mostly it is comforting
But in the dark
where no one sees
It's actually quite lonely..
Growing up your my main inspiration,
I gave you hardship and lots of frustrations,
But you’ve always been there when I needed some love,
Arms spread open hugging me like a glove,
Love can make us do stupid crazy things,
Things that never in a million years you thought would do.
Things you regret doing.
However, at the time it does not occur to us how our actions ruins us on the inside
People ask me why I don't date in the same way they'd ask a sick man what's wrong with him.
I can help it; I can focus on other things
But it seems I’m self possessed on creating love.
It’s a vague light, opaque at best and maybe because
I need things to be perfect
My heart no longer mourns for your love,
I pulled back the curtain once,
You told me it was safe.
You saw that I am a klutz,
When we’re kissing, don’t worry about your chapped lips.
Your honeysuckle tongue has all the backlash of a whip,
You see only the honey that drips from my tongue;
I sit in anticipation for the day I bare my fangs and reveal the blood on my teeth.
I'll add your heart to my collection,
Why don't you go and call me baby.
My lips are pink as valentines, I know.
Honey, it might be a bit of a shock
He'll make you bleed but-
Foreplay helps calm any nerves a LOT-
Seven o'clock I walk Into the doors of my high school, my black high school
Where People do whatever it takes to be considered cool
I walk into the bathroom choking from the smoke
Uhg I hate this school I complain daily
Love is a beautiful thing,
'Yer jalan athhirari anni,' she says. 'Moon of my life.'
'Shekh ma shieraki anni,' I whisper back. 'My sun and stars.'
But girls shouldn't date girls
They shouldn't hold hands or kiss
Have you ever wondered what it would be like to say whatever you want without ridicule?
Or maybe you want to do physical things like grabbing a can without issue.
You say I am a decent writerSo I write this one to youYou who loves me for all of meNot just the me that is nice and pleasantBut the me that is mean and dark and confused
This is as quiet as it gets
So please don’t break this silence
Just hush down and fall asleep
I promise not to make a sound so you don’t wake
This moment is the calming before the storm
In the 3in by 2in picture
I speak on fear, depression, and realization.
Success to me only comes when all three of these things plays together as one.
The battle is all within yourself and will always be.
I want to see you, you say.
And so you see me
through the sage green stitches
of my grandmother's crocheted yarn,
And so you see me
Lying above the cherry-cola leather sofa.
And so you see me,
Lost in another compilation of complications.
A group of her friends worsened the situation.
I can't take this nonsense anymore I'm walking out the door.
I'm not leaving you but I'm leaving this relationship.
My story goes unspoken
The pain went unknown,
They say you spend your whole life rewriting the first poem you ever loved.
With you, my dear, you were my first poem.
I remember the way I said I loved you, I remember the way you shrugged.
The way my heart was stolen.
I didn't mean to upset you I'm sorry
I don't know why I always have to ask so many questions.
Down the stairs I'm falling
Raindrops on my window
Teardrops on my cheeks.
The pain is so strong that it is sinking in.
I thought about calling you and pouring my emotions out, but there is so much to say I would have to shout.
Emotionally invested into something I once protested.
Her alarm goes of and she hits it with all her strength
Her bed is soaked from the night before
She gets her favorite jeans and matches it with her favorite shirt
Allow yourself to grieve
Discover the way his name sounds when spoken from a throat tight with tears
How it sounds thrown against the wall, shattering
Wondering, Waiting, Pondering
Happiness, Smile, Anger, Sorrow
To be LOVED by ONE Man is better, than to be LIKED by HUNDREDS of Boys.
Hannah was late coming home this evening.
Traffic was slow and she had trouble leaving.
Work was hard and she hadn't any time
I apologize if I'm a bother
I usually don't do this because I'm....
Well I get nervous
But I just wanted to tell you that you are gorgeous
What to do with all the hurt?
When inside you're fit to burst.
You're supposed to be so strong.
You're supposed to not be wrong.
Put a face that betrays the truth.
Give an air of being aloof.
I want to believe that everything you've said is true,
but I just can't trust myself to trust in you.
You've told me lies, you've made me cry.
I'd stay up all night trying to figure out why.
When I cry it's in vain
When lightning strikes the tame
I find myself lost as if I fell from a peak
The mountain I stand on is no more
Tumbling down a sea of diamonds – all unique
Part of an avalanche, a moving floor
How badly I want it.
Maybe it’s this time of year
Maybe it’s my own conjuring,
My own extrapolation
My own imagined solitude.
But it’s eating me from the inside out
Devouring its way through my heart
Who is that in the mirror?
The one staring back at me
Her eyes look familiar
Her face foreign
What is that pain?
She has a bruise on her arm
Where he grabbed her too hard
1. You got out of jail on Sunday.
The sudden realization that you weren't just a bad dream
Cracks my eyes open, makes them bleed
I was Alice falling through the rabbit hole
My mind wonders,
My thoughts are twisted,
These ideas in my head
Are strung together
With memories and emotions
I'm unable to comprehend.
Lying in bed looking down to you,
That Jungle Fever
We got an issue in America. . . It's called Interracial Dating/
This is pain is just too real
The moment I got attacked by the wegded heel.
A vagina is a percious jewel?
And what is a penis?
What is its mythical powers?
Why does a woman have to explain her sexual history,
intimacies and etc?
It's in his too-mellifluous voice,
I was in love with the wayyou always knew what you wantedhow you walked like you were the most important person in the roomI was smitten with your tiny bodyand how feminine you sounded when you laughed
The sterling silver and stripped car,
with the squealing high pitched sound.
May it break on a back road away very far
and leave him stranded, never found.
The boy who tried that morning to hit me,
I know I just met you
but please let me say
we could get food..
I mean..I want you to stay.
Ahhh not in a creepy way
life is bad,
It makes no sense,
Why would you hate a guy like me?
No girl likes me,
That I've come to know,
But why do they all hate me?
That I'll never know.
So you tell me,
I’m no good at making choices so I let my hands do the talking,
Blocking my heart from letting out what its been calling.
My back is pinned in so tight I can no longer feel my heart beat,
To whit the most passionate excesses wave from the body
Your glasses left indents on your nose
Like your words did to my persona
It was something in your hands
Wrinkled from holding on to loves lost and far gone
You liked to choke the life out me
Stay inside your lonely head, and tidy up your filthy bed,
Everything’s closing in, I can’t move,
We were friends back, years ago
Back When She was a awkward nerd and my hair was nappy.
Now We're all grown up, reunited,
And All I want is to make her happy.
I break away from you,
So I can live my life.
I don't know what I'm going to do,
Perhaps just try to survive.
I'm able to do as I want and my voice will be heard,
Because now I am as free as a bird.
Live your life like its your lastLet go of everyth
Ever gave someone your all and felt like its not enough. when you cry at night and feel like no one understands. and its like you been on the same rollercoaster so many times. and your tired but the more you try to get off the harder it gets.
This day is drawing to a close, the night is coming near,
And somewhere out there stars light up, illuminate my fear.
It takes a dense, steel wrecking ball to break through love’s embrace,
Explosions break the darkness
And we fall from the sky—
Blown to bits.
Pieces of each of us glitter
As they float down,
Tossed around by the wind,
Ever so gently,
Nearing the earth.
Being an aspie can be a source of misery or a source of pride, it’s all in the bearer’s perception. “What’s an aspie?” you might ask. It’s a term for someone who bears the rigorous condition of aspergers.
I have recently come
to the conclusion that
there are too many clocks
and not enough time to explain
the euphoric spectrum of color
you bring to everything we do.
True luv doesnt hurt intentionaly, reality is abuse always hurts~ Fist or words the damage is the same. I can forgive the pain of ur fist faster than ur words. None i'll ever forget, foolishly most i'll forgive.
Invisible scars that aline her armTransparent bruises that do no harmMake up covers those nasty scarsLook at her now and look how far
My brain comprehends your words
Twisting and distorting the meanings.
It only focuses on the negatives.
My heart hears your words,
Embracing and realizing their true meanings.
Maybe the timing’s not right.
Or maybe it’s just not meant to be.
Should I put up a fight?
Or should I let it be?
I keep running into you.
We’re so close, yet so far.
An ocean of my blood and tearskilling me with my own fears.I let myself drownin all this misery.You can trybut I won't let you save me.
I am too young to be in love.
I am too immature to be dating.
I don't really know what I'm getting myself into.
I am in love.
I am mature.
I know exactly what I'm getting myself into.
Maybe you just have my hormones going
That’s the reason my blood is flowing
So quickly and you got my pulse thats pulsing
So quickly you got my impulse going
I kiss you and my whole bodies glowing
So you want to date a black girl?With her heavenly body, that looks as if it is God’s greatest creation.
I can't help but feel that something's offYou avoid meFor reasons that I cannot seeI feel like the third wheelWas what we had before surreal?
Please just let me go homeI can't stay hereNothing satisfiesI can't even eatThe sight of food makes me sickI just really want to leave
I turn in a circle and danceI won't even offer the past a second glanceWho needs you?I can make do!
When it broke apartNothing weighed heavyNot even my heart
I stare at the dark abyss of my bedroomDaydreams flow through my headAnd I wonderA question that has bugged me for years
Why I Hurt
What is this pain in my chest?I'm supposed to be better nowOver it
But I guess I still hurtBecause no matter whatThings will never be the wayThey used to be
You scream for meTelling yourself liesTelling me that you love meI know you do
You beg for meIt can never beI may love youBut the world is against us
I told him...
"Pretty girls don't have scars,"
And I cried.
With a finger under my chin,
He made me look into his eyes.
He told me that's what makes me beautiful
And kissed every tear
My love my love
Look only at me
My love my love
You belong with me
When your gone, I can't stand the silence
I go insane.
My love my love
Stay with me
My love my love
Love is like a candle.
At first it burns bright,
And then it dims,
And then goes out.
Just like a candle.
And all that's left is a broken, melted, burning, oozing pile of melted wax.
Yes! Yes! He accept my friend request
I could remember the joy that filled my soul
It was so much it leak like snat coming through my nose
my heart was like the prime minister on Election Day
I used to ache for you to know me.For you to wonder about my depths and reason, For you to fall into my cracks and find pieces of yourself you never knew you lost.I used to wish to hear those words drip from your lips,
For that which love does say
And whisper rather than shout
Only to cause some fray
Then leave both sides to pout
Love lasts long only when it wants to
Often it breaks to become an empty shell
Maybe one day we can lay there and count all the stars Not having one worry about life behind closed bars
I promise someday we'll catch every star and one day we'l reach for the moon
I want you
She wants you
So there's a decision
But yet, no decision
If you feel like you need to choose,
I’ll help you out
Pull out of the race, stop playing your game
head to chest, buried
listening to lullabies
of the heart...
and seeking comfort
in the protection of
I take my seat in my usual chair.
Hey, it’s good to see you!
How have you been?
I pick at what’s left of my nails.
My bones hurt as they hit the bed.
My stomach empty like a bitter morning from a nightmare.
My tears burn as they meet my face.
The rumbling in my heart scares me as it pounds me down.
How many times will I
hear the same story of a
girl who saw a boy and
fell in hopeless, mournful love?
How many times will I
I will never look at you the same ever again. What you did to me, I will never understand. How dare you ever tell me you adore me! When now all you ever do is ignore me. I don’t understand how I could change your mind.
Loud were the sirens crying outand loud was the body that wanted to be let outWanted to be free and do whatever it pleasedNot knowing the regrets that it would reap.Loud were the warning bells that seemed to shout.
I do not much care when you call me weird, my heart is just in another place i can't say that your heart should be there, but that is where mine lies, in the crevice of this world.
You tell me you love me,
Yet you treat me like dirt.
Everything is a game with
You; and you play with my heart.
It gets me to wonder,
It gets me to wonder.
The way we share smiles,
Confined by these chains
They're tying me down
I'm feeling no pain as I helplessly drown
Floating and spinning in the waves of despair
A weight's being lifted
We were holding handsYou were looking at meThe way boys always doWhen they want something moreI got up and walked awayI just wanted spaceWe were on a couch in a clothing store
a remnant of ancestral land
what left with the emerald isle
those you so heavily rely on
alike the tides
to gravitational pull
“You smell like cigarettes”, she said.
“That’s because I smoke”, he said.
"I dated a writer once. I think.... I'd like to date one again." She eased the statement from her lips confidently and seeking of my approval. I only laughed at her.
Swinging my hips side to side like they ain’t got no business
Looking at your lips, they can make some mean Caribbean kisses
Dreads mid-way your back
You held me like a Barbie,
As if you're my perfect Ken,
Thinking I will give you
Everything just like that doll.
You don't seem to understand
That my kiss is not your toy;
This feeling in my stomach,
The weakness in my knees,
The nervousness I feel,
Maybe True Love is real.
My tongue is tied,
Words falling empty from mouth.
The time becomes slow, yet
So you hoped your heart would keep you strong
It’s summertime and everyone’s free
Taking life easy and drinking sweet tea
Hearts being broken yeah it’s the season
Girls dropping boys for no apparent reason
Boys leaving girls
The words I hold back, Are the qualities that you lack, You want me to be ther for you, But your why when you are so rude, I wanted you to be that man for me, but I was to blind to see, You had another woman in our bed, Enough said, You are a sold
Running deep The Still
Trapped down to nil
Break out, refrain to scream and shout
Fuscoferuginous rhythm weeps
Agnate to sheep, in sleep
Coveting not to keep the meek
Unable to leace and miss
You made me feel like there was nothing wrong
Like I was the only one you wanted
And we would always be together like two lovebirds in song,
That we were made for each other,
But we’re not, like a cat and a dog.
Her beauty doth shine as ‘twould make the sun
Itself seem as though ‘twere but a mere coal.
A match for her, there is never a one,
Sitting with the rain
Holding my hands under the puddles
Fading I see the rain stop
The sun set and then the moon
As if the moon was glass
The sun dost pass through the sky in the blink of an eye;
‘Tis but the foreshadow of the cometh of my foe.
If only it would stay a bit longer,
My sorrows might there be forgotten;
My first love By: Ladii Kay
I went to a dance one night on the Queen Mary in May
where the ocean kissed the ship
the same way the guests tip toed on deck
that was adorned with pearl necklaces of lights
(poems go here)
The guillotine was honest,
as it cut off your bloody head.
it didn't whisper "I love you,"
and then mess with your mind instead.
I was invited to an ideal girls' night out
An idea suggested to me by the girl with flirtatious eyebrows but her pure spirit told me to bring a friend
Awaiting your company
calls for heated anticipation,
freshly brushed teeth,
a sprits of ‘Sweet Seduction”,
and an optimistic,
for the two of us.
As things get rough I find her head hangs low
Eyes bellowed beneath the clouds his hands on her chest as a chain on his ankles holds him tight
Her body is in a state of mind that nobody can feel
There is nothing worse
Than the feeling of being replaced
Not good enough
You left when things got tough
And I really can't blame you
I would leave if I could too
Long paths, twisting winding roads.
Mountains and valleys.
Scraped knees and weary bones.
I'm parched and lost.
Every time I see you with her it kills me inside .
Our memories will never fade away from my mind .
My heart is yours but I know that you have moved on .
All I do is think of you.
i feel sick.
sick from the hurt
from the pain
from the hate i want to feel,
sick from the hole in my heart
from the helplessness
from the power you have over me
Who knew what would happen when you meet someone
it could turn into great things
it could give you some great memories
it could get you a new friend
it could even get you someone you really like
Why is it you keep wanting to pull me back in?
Look at all the damage you have done
You think i really want to be pulled back in.
You think that its that easy.
But seriously i dont want to be pulled back in.
With the worldly wise and well worn arrows of the deep
And the everlasting beauties of an unawakened sleep
The world is slick and rotten through
A sickly melody for those that chant, to croon
Why does it seem like God takes the good people early?
It was not until he called you that I realized I had something amazing all along.
Just as I thought it was save to rest my eyes.
The pain of the ignorance you exhibit is blissful,
yet it haunts me through the night.
Speak your words to me once more, my darling
So prim, so proper, so rehearsed
Appeasing, but unreachable
Soothing to the ears, but unrelatable
Why protect me, love?
We all know I take as well as I dish
One more bruise,
One more curse,
One more day to endure the hurt,
One more insult,
One more look,
One more thought that it is all done,
One more slap,
One more tear,
I've seen those hands before
In a different country far from here
I've smelled that scent before
But it's not like he's standing beside me
Flashbacks through my senses
I found a way to communicate
It's not like everyday talk
I've thought of ways to ask
But I just get up and walk
when did you do it?
when did you steal my heart?
you must of tricked me,
and fooled me--
Girls today are rewinding back to the Leave It to Beaver days with June at the helm of their dilapidated ship filled with: aprons, house coats, cake mix, feather dusters, and beige pumps.
And its things like that which make me question: Why is it so soon and I’m already questioning. My gut is already right, I’m a Sagittarius.
My heart no longer smiles the way it use to
It just sits there and stifles
The feelings that it really wants to let out
It holds back and waits
Unwilling to express itself out of the anxiety
It been a while
Since I’ve seen you
Since I’ve touched you
Since I’ve missed you
Since I’ve needed you
Time has changed
Who we were
And has given me
Death is a woman when she is killed emotionaly.
Death is a woman when her heart is broken.
Death is a woman when she is abused by the man.
Death is a woman when she is afraid of her own mind.
I imagine that I am warm.
The jet hair on your arms I nestle in should be proof enough.
I shrug off the nip and slide into your spacious body cavity.
Ward away the seeping light.
“Your fault,.” he would say.
“You’re right.” Regret filled me.
“Try harder,” he spat in my face.
“I will.” Shame rose up.
“You need me,” he simply stated.
“Please don’t go.” Panic overwhelmed me.
I can't decipher if it was love that caused me to be attracted to him
Was it his cologne or after shave
Was it his thug like mentality an his gentlemen facade
That caused me to be smitten by danger
I tricked him.
I tricked him into thinking he loved me.
No man would have been able to love me based on his own accord.
I tricked him.
Uncertain, Silent, Words
Crying, Pleading, Screaming unheard
Black, emotionless tries
Passed on unknowing Conversation dies
Heat flat lines
No beat. Fear shivers down spines
There have been some words,
that have been left unsaid.
All, of which, have been bothering me,
So darling, let's put these problems to bed.
Interrupted Solace in a Winter's Evening
Every once and awhile I like to be alone
I burrow in the confines of my memory
And dart from conversations like a fish from glass
Talk about cliche
I've got my heart on my sleeve.
Unsure what to do
Don't know where to go.
You reeled me in like a little fish
You've pulled me around like a puppet on a string