Do you remember 10:30 P.M the way I do?
10:30 P.M. is when my dad left for work.
10:30 P.M. is when I’d send the text “ Hey, you can come inside now.”
10:30 P.M. is when we’d make a whole meal for a family and share it for just us two.
10:30 P.M. is when we’d pick out our Netflix movies for the night.
10:30 P.M. used to be my favorite time.
10:30 P.M. is when my whole night started.
I used to be in love with 10:30 P.M.
I used to be in love with you.
but all the fights started making the time change.
With every argument we added 5 seconds.
With every tear we added 10 more.
With every whisper of “I can’t do this anymore” we added 30.
Before we knew it, it wasn’t 10:30 P.M. anymore.
Now, it’s midnight.
The night is over.
But do you know what happens at midnight?
Midnight means that it’s a whole new day.
It’s a chance to find time
to find time to find someone else.
Maybe this someone else will make you fall in love with 8:30 P.M.
Or maybe this person will make you fall in love with 8:30 A.M.
Or maybe in the future we’ll fall in love with 10:30 P.M. all over again.
Maybe we’ll come back together and fall in love all over again.
But for now, i’ll try and enjoy my time without you.
I just look over at my clock when it’s 10:30 P.M.
and I miss it sometimes.