I have a lot of fears in life.
For starters, I have six minutes 'til 3:30 AM, and I fear I will have a terrible day tomorrow for lack of sleep.
I fear needles and snakes.
I fear rejection and harsh judgement.
I fear gaining weight.
I fear my depression.
I fear feelings, especially the kind I cannot control.
I fear God.
I fear the shame that was taught to me by society and the church as a quality of being a woman.
I fear being alone.
I fear I will continuously fall in love with the wrong people.
I fear myself and what I am capable of, and that is just the beginning of it all.
Like I said, I have a lot of fears.
However, my biggest fear is that I will miss out on life because I let all these fears hold me back.
So I tackle these fears head on.
I get tattoos,
I experiment with my sexuality,
and I put my heart on the line every single day
and take the good with the bad.
I left the church,
took God with me though,
and adopted feminism as my new religion.
I do what I want, keeping kindness as my core.
After all, this is my coming of age story.