All That I Hide

All that was taken

All that was lost

Puts me here, on this cross

 

With this cross come sympathy 

Sympathy I'd rather not bare

So I just remain here

In this chair

 

This chair is my home

Behind the velvet curtain 

Behind the broken walls

That I alone let fall

 

I have a story

Questionably true

That we'll both keep

Just between me and you

 

Caught between flesh

Between smothered screams 

Was someone

Someone just like me

 

Yet different in a way

Different every single day

Creating an act unseen

Except to now you and of course 

Me

 

I've waited so long

I've waited in despair

For I've no longer been allowed air

 

So I sit here

Twisting

Struggling

Wishing to be free

Of this unsettling burden

 

That was once just about me

And no one knew

Not a soul

And now it seems you've struck gold

 

You've captured my secret

You've read it out loud

In an unholy version

You've made me the clown

 

The spectator you are

The preformer I am

There's no reason

To believe me

When I say who I am

 

I've been scarred into a person

The fakest of them all

But that's what happens

When you take a great fall

 

From innocent 

To guilty

I just remind my self

Day to day

That I must pray

 

Pray that I can be

Just one singular me

 

No faces

No lies

Just a one person

Before I die

 

 

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