All That I Hide
All that was taken
All that was lost
Puts me here, on this cross
With this cross come sympathy
Sympathy I'd rather not bare
So I just remain here
In this chair
This chair is my home
Behind the velvet curtain
Behind the broken walls
That I alone let fall
I have a story
Questionably true
That we'll both keep
Just between me and you
Caught between flesh
Between smothered screams
Was someone
Someone just like me
Yet different in a way
Different every single day
Creating an act unseen
Except to now you and of course
Me
I've waited so long
I've waited in despair
For I've no longer been allowed air
So I sit here
Twisting
Struggling
Wishing to be free
Of this unsettling burden
That was once just about me
And no one knew
Not a soul
And now it seems you've struck gold
You've captured my secret
You've read it out loud
In an unholy version
You've made me the clown
The spectator you are
The preformer I am
There's no reason
To believe me
When I say who I am
I've been scarred into a person
The fakest of them all
But that's what happens
When you take a great fall
From innocent
To guilty
I just remind my self
Day to day
That I must pray
Pray that I can be
Just one singular me
No faces
No lies
Just a one person
Before I die