All I Need To Say For Now
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I never liked filters.
They always seemed trashy.
I use them anyway.
I make them work.
Authenticity is scarce.
Though it's still there.
You have to sift.
Will you find anything?
A mote of You.
A mote of me?
Am I even there?
Can I see myself?
I'll try to say.
Say what I am.
Self consciousness stops me.
Narcissism goads me.
What is to say?
Poor while male student.
A girlfriend, no job.
I still dream big.
I still limit myself.
I still build walls.
I still think small.
I still hope high.
"O, but one day."
I always tell myself.
I'll change and be.
Achieve, learn, and grow.
I'm a compulsive liar.
Silver tongued and soft.
Lost, silly black sheep.
One of the best.
Can I break out?
Stop my stunting ways?
Side-step my addictions?
Quit biting my nails?
Maybe there is hope.
Some days I break through.
But, always I regress.
At least I know.