I just really need a clean slate

I done messed up so much

I just really need an escape

I desperately miss your touch

I need to know if it is too late

I am tired of this emotional crutch

These drugs help me levitate 

My emotions are just too much

I carry a great weight on my shoulders

Everything changes when you get older

It feels like I am the solar system's holder

My heart is steadily growing colder

I really need time to go a little slower

I need more drugs, I hate being sober

Because my dark thoughts take over

I hide it all with a smile, Momma raised a soldier