And So I Am

At age eleven

I heard the kids talking

Calling girls a word

I had never heard before

They told me what "Lesbian" meant

And that it was bad

And so it was

 

At age twelve

My cousin told all of us

That he was a she

And I didn't understand

Mom told me what "Transgender" meant

And that it was strange

And so it was

 

At age thirteen

I felt emotionally drained

Every single day

No matter how hard I tried

Society told me what "Depression" meant

And that it was weak

And so it was

 

At age fourteen

I had fallen hard in love

And dated this boy

But fell for a girl, as well

Websites told me what "Bi" meant

And that it was greedy

And so it was

 

At age sixteen

Friends were talking about sex

And how great it was

But I'd never wanted it

Research told me what "Asexual" meant

And that it was broken

And so it was

 

At age eighteen

I started wearing boy's clothes

But liked dresses, too

And used all different pronouns

Friends told me what "Bigender" meant

And that it was fake

And so it was

 

At age nineteen

I have dated boys and girls

I still don't want sex

I have pushed past depression

I call myself both "He" and "She"

I tell everyone what "Individuality" means

And that it's beautiful

And so I am

 

This poem is about: 
Me

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