Anomaly

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A past full of shame, guilt, pain, and trauma,

I was mistreated, misused,

hurt, confused,

in distraught,

I was lost,

in the dark,

it was like a open wound,

infectious,

I couldn't talk about it, it’d be way too soon.

Soon,

tables turned,

and I realized,

all the words being spewed,

were shaping me into whom,

THEY thought I would be.

But it was all a lie.

I had to choose,

if I was going to live

or if I was going to die.

Something snapped in me,

and I began to see,

with intense clarity, vividly, in detail,
the differences I obtain,

what I potentially could mold into,

it’s something evident,

I was stamped THE FAT GIRL,

THE UGLY GIRL,

THE INSECURE ONE,

WORTHLESS,

PIECE OF CRAP,

UNLOVABLE,

FATHERLESS,

BROKENHEARTED,

DRUG ADDICT,

ALCOHOLIC,

ANGRY,

and CRAZY,

BUT despite that,

God saw something different

in me,
I AM THE CHANGE,

despite the devils attempts,

to keep me in CHAINS,

I remained sane.

God was holding me close,

telling me what I truly contain,

on the inside.

The time is now,

to evolve in whom I’m meant to be,

to see that my far fetched dreams,

don’t make me crazy.

IN FACT, I’m becoming who I AM,

purposed and called to be.

I AM,

BEAUTIFUL,

STRONG,

LOVABLE,

CARING,

DESERVING,

KIND,

INTELLIGENT,

CREATIVE,

WHOLE,

I AM CHANGE,

I AM the one who everyone sees,

not because of my pain, scars, or even wounds,

I AM THE CHANGE,

No longer enslaved to my past,

Freedom at last.

I am a new creature,

THIS the real ME,

authentic me,

ceasing to be,

whatever everyone wants me to be,

I am the anomaly.

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