Anxiety
Don't tell me it's all in my head,
I say sorry a lot because I'm genuinely afraid that I've insulted you somehow,
Don't say I'm overreacting,
I get set off by the little things and I worry all the time,
Don't say I'll just kiss you and it'll all go away,
Because it's always there, and I've tried, and it won't,
I keep it on the inside cuz that's the safest place to hide,
Don't ask me how I'm doing and expect the answer, "Good, okay, fine,"
Because sometimes I'm doing bad, and I'm sick of saying that everything's alright,
Don't say that my feelings don't matter, or that they'll just go away, or that this isn't the worst thing,
Do you want to know what the worst thing is?
The worst feeling in the world is trying to hold back a panic attack in public,
Don't say that I'm crazy,
This is a mental disorder that I have to deal with,
Don't keep stressing that I got to be "normal,"
Because no matter how I try, I never will, I can't,
Please be patient with me
when I say things are awkward, i'm uncomfortable in every/any situation, no matter who I'm with,
And I don't mean to personally hurt you,
I'm not looking for attention,
I cry because sometimes people and situations are too much,
Forget the stereotypes,
I don't hyperventilate or roll on the floor,
I stare into space, and shake, and can't stop thinking about everything and anything, and getting anxious,
why did I do this?
I'm an idiot
Why didn't I do this?
I'm a coward
Please be patient with me
Because I only mean the best.