You called me today.
Told me you wanted her instead of me, that it made more logical sense
Because that’s what feelings are about right? Logic.
I cried. Yes, yes I cried. But I didn’t let you see me cry.
But I have my friends here, and they are wonderful.
But I’m sad, so, so, so sad.
I was taught how to solve an integral
I was taught about genetics
I was taught how to balance equations
I was taught how to analyze Hamlet
But never in my 13 years of schooling was I taught how you can miss someone so much that it cripples you and makes your knees shake and your courage disintegrate.
No, I wasn’t taught something that important
So here I stand, slowly breaking, putting off deciding to sink or swim, when no one ever taught me to swim, and the moments coming.
Will I learn? Or will I drown?