What’s up Doc?
Silence? Why, that’s awfully rude
Here, allow me to ask more politely…
What’s. Up. Doc?
Still nothing huh?
Well I’m doing fine, thanks for asking
In fact, I’m doing better than fine
I’m unbelievably superb…
I’m not crazy
It’s funny; you’re not like the other doctors
You don’t talk as much as they do
You just listen
I like that about you
Forgive me, where are my manners?
Here I am flattering you with compliments and you don’t even know who I am
Can we start over?
Umm… Hello, my name is Oblivious
Don’t worry about how I got that name
It’s just a name, nothing more
I’ve been incarcerated in this place for about three years now
Can’t say I love it but it’s home now so I can’t complain
You don’t need to ask
That exhausted, yet cold look in your eye says it all
You’re curious about how I got her aren’t you
I’m not crazy
Tragic story really
I decided to leave the comforts of my home to explore uncharted lands
And the next thing I know, I’m locked up in this hellhole known as Heartbreak
She accused me of not being the right one
I mean… I thought I was okay
But okay isn’t enough is it Doc?
No, the world doesn’t want okay
They want over the top, amazing, spectacular, and larger than life
They want strength, confidence, romance!
Two years were spent inside this penitentiary alone…
I wasn’t completely alone
The walls make for some interesting conversationalists
I still like you better though
Don’t give me that look
I told you I’m not crazy…
Two years I laid in this very spot
Counting cracks on the ceiling above
When a voice called out to me
She said, “Come… Join me…”
And I foolishly did as I was told
Surprisingly, I managed to escape this place
It wasn’t easy getting past the guards
But I seemed to manage
Only… She wasn’t there when I looked for her…
She called, then left me
They threatened to lock me up again so I ran
I ran as fast as I could Doc
You have to understand
This was my first taste of freedom in two years
It was like ice cream on a hot summer’s day
Shall I compare thee to a summer’s day?
I had so much love in my heart that had been rebuked
Time and time again I was made an outcast and sent to this wretched place
And time and time again I broke out when I heard the voices calling for me
Then I met her
The first voice to wait for me after I escaped
Oh Doc she was perfect!
She was my life!
I couldn’t believe how much the world had changed when I was with her
I felt lucky!
I felt euphoric!
I felt… I felt real…
Life felt real
Life was remarkable
Everything was okay for once
I could actually stare death in the face and laugh
Nothing on Earth could stop me
Then something out of this world hit me
Everything changed when she stopped me
Sucker punched right there Doc
Can you believe it?
I gave my ALL to this girl and she left me
Oops… Excuse me
It seems that I have told a lie
She didn’t leave me
I left her
I left her because I loved her Doc
I’m not crazy
I left her because I loved her more than she could ever imagine
I wanted her to be happy
Screw my happiness because my happiness didn’t matter
It never has…
And boy, did she take the news well
She took it better than well in fact
No tears shed
Not the slightest frown or quiver of the lower lip
In fact, quite the opposite
My salvation smiled at the idea of separation
Was I really that unbearable?
I tried to stay out in the world Doc
I tried to be okay
And when that didn’t work, I tried faking like I was okay
I really did
But it was too much
My heart couldn’t take living out there without her
Out there without anyone to tell me that they loved me
So… I locked myself back in here and told the warden to hold the keys
I promised not to break out for a while… Possibly forever…
I don’t know
My perception of time is not all that great
Tell me Doc…
Is it wrong to feel like I want to be desired?
Is it bad that I wish someone would express how much they needed me?
Have I sinned because I begged the voices to look me in the eye and say, “I love you”?
Am I… Selfish?
I really hope I’m not selfish
I’m not trying to be self-centered
It’s just… People forget that I’m human too…
I breathe the same air you do
I walk the same earth you do
I was created by the same God that brought you all here
So is it too much to ask to be accepted for once?
To be desired more than anything else by someone?
To be loved for being me?
Santa, for Christmas I want a girl to love me for me
No Santa, I’m not crazy
At least I don’t think so
Is love crazy?
Why aren’t you answering me Santa?
Why aren’t you answering me Doc?
Are you abandoning me like they did?
Am I not good enough for you either?
The first tear has stained my cheek
Are you satisfied now?
Have you had a good laugh society?
Err… Excuse me, I mean Doc?
Diagnose me because I’m so confused
Am I crazy?
Or am I just depressed?
In all my rambling, I didn’t realize that I was talking to a mirror
I just see... A ghost
A ghost is staring at me
I just blinked and the ghost is gone
In it’s place stands a monster
A dreadful, forbidding monster
Mirror, you must forgive me
I didn’t mean to frighten you with my emotional baggage
Here, allow me to fix the issue…
You’d think I’d feel something when I punched a mirror
You’d think the shards protruding through my flesh would hurt
You’d think I’d be alarmed by the sight of my own blood dripping onto this hollow pavement
Hey Doc, I think you need to take a good look at yourself
Your face kind of resembles my heart at the moment
Shattered, frozen, and menacing