I’m standing in the middle of a street suffocating and no one can see

No one can see the pain and embarrassment I have buried inside of me

The pain strikes me

My embarrassment brands me

Stuck in a birdcage and can’t be released

Too stuck to see that I’m drowning

Drowning in the mistake I made

letting the enemy use me like a napkin and thrown away like I was never meaningful

horrible comments of the world that only exasperated my insecurities

Pushed around, peer pressure weighing me down

Cause,  I was to gullible to see that enemy really wasn’t my friend

Wanting to fit in is like a gun to my head forcing me to choose these so called friends or choosing to accepting my true self

Didn't want to be that weirdo anymore and tired of being someone's punching bag

So many things that were thrown at me from my left to my right

So I gave in to the enemy’s crooked ways of being because i felt that I wanted to be one of them

But I wasn't one of them

More pressure brought upon me

Till I just wanted to give up on the journey of life

Immediately I hear a voice which roared like the thunder in the skies

It spoke and said, “Listen child, how dare you think that you can’t make it in this world.  How dare you crumble under the weight of your mistakes. Hold your head up, cause I am always with you like I was with you when I created you in your mother’s womb.”

So in that moment, I could feel the rivers of my soul flowing like a mighty stream

A light shining through and lifting my self-esteem

Promising my true self to not make the same mistakes

Changing my ways of life

Embracing my weird and smart successful self

Start loving who God truly wanted me to be

And that is

A beautiful black girl that is as strong as a bird

Flying in the ravishing sunny skies

Soaring through the clouds finding my true destiny to freedom

Now in clouds

The wind rushing heavily through my ears

Giving me an electrifying boost of courage and sign from God

The sign was such a blessing in disguise, I am the lesson to learn to be learned