Sometimes I feel like I'm drowning in my own tears

Thinking of all my inecurities and fears

I can hardly see the beauty in me at all

All i see is the flaws

But you look at me in a different way

You don't look at my body, my hair or my so called pretty face

But you see the beauty within

The beauty i considered a sin

I thought that being yourself was wrong doing

I didn't realize that was something i should've been doing

I denied my own identity for so long

I didn't even realize it was wrong

I thought that as long as i had a smile on my face

I would be able to make it happily through the day

Many nights i cried myself to sleep

i covered my mouth to make sure no one could hear a peep

I would wake up the next morning with bloodshot eyes

and bleeding cuts on my thighs

I thought that would make the pain inside escape with the blood dripping down my leg

Instead the pain and suicidal thoughts stayed in my head

But in the midst of all of that i would count to ten

And realize God still saw the beauty within