The smiles all fade behind closed doors
and then silence is all that waits.
It is then that I fall down to all fours
as sadness is all my mind creates.
But pain is not all I feel when I'm alone,
there's a sense of calmness when no one else is there.
The loneliness is not what I wish to atone,
for no one wishes to drown in despair.
The one thing I wish is to see his face,
to be in his presence until the end.
To feel his love, his kindness, and grace,
for this feeling I feel one cannot comprehend.
He pulled me from the darkness that I once felt,
and closed his eyes while he wrapped his arms around me.
He took away the damage that I had dealt,
And took away my terrible future only I could forsee.
But if I lost him I'd fear things would go back once more,
back to a dark world of my mind's own wars.
Back to the way that I felt before,
where all the smiles fade behind closed doors.