Behind the curtain, you’ll never see

What I really feel

What I truly believe:

I can never be healed

 

There’s far too much treachery

Lurking in my past

The horrible memories

Will forever last

 

For what I’ve done

I cannot be forgiven

The knife swinging down

They should be livid

 

Forever I live in shame, self-hatred, and doubt

But mostly confusion takes its hold

When I let my emotions out

For towards me, the world is not cold

 

When I did the unthinkable

The world stood by me

In my mind, that’s not typical

But the love was something I needed to see

 

So for now maybe I’ll live in regret

But others are here to change it bit by bit