BFFL
Remember
ordering Chinese food on those Friday nights in front of the TV
the notes of support you would leave when I wasn't looking
how early we would wake up to do each other's hair
the hours we spend looking through CDs at the mall
and the Thanksgiving movie tradition we tried to start
I still see your bright blue eyes when I close mine
I remember your birthmark in the right one that never left sight
You were love
My first
My best friend forever
I hope our sober thoughts meet again
I write cards because of you
every envelope I seal I think of leaving behind for you
to tell you how I feel
with fear
with love
I hope your eyes still look the same
I hope you've kept up with the new trends
and me
so desperately wanting your love
but so aware of pain you left me with
when you didn't choose me
I found a new home
it's quite different
it's supportive and loving and mine
it reminds me each night of you
and how far I have come
and the love I have received
embracing me
the way a mother should