I kissed a girl before I kissed a boy
But no one knew that til now
I kept that secret locked away
It's in my box of masks in my chest of lies
Lies I tell my parents, myself, the world
I'm not un-average I am normal
Normal
What is normal
What is fear what is queer what is right
what is it like to live rejected
Deflecting the insults and judgement from both sides
A straight girl wanting to play around
Neither gay enough or straight enough to belong
I quiver at the touch of a woman's hands down my body
Paralyze and convulse at her caress
Moan at the exhibit of passion
Yet Im told I'm only going through the steps
I'm not using humans as toys
Playing with hearts like a silly girl
I'm not s player or a heart breaker
I'm a rule breaker and a self pleaser
I aim to please my parter and in turn please myself
I see grays and colors
The world isn't gay or straight
Black is the absence of all color
White the refraction of every color merging together
I illuminate my dark places
I'm my own self, have my own laws
I am my own island
Accept me or ship out