Blood Moon
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I still am lost in the wonder of its beauty
So sweet it is
As it just lays there
Deep in red valor
I want nothing more
Than to freeze this time
This time that is sacred and rare
A time I held for you
But you are not near
You are still a far
We cannot talk
And we cannot touch
There is a barrier
Keeping us from being
More strong than any superstition
A power non understanding itself
It fades darker as the moon hides
Lunar eclipse that only we can see
I'm so very sad that I lost you there
Never to see or hear from you again
It’s growing near its end now
And the blood starts draining out
It seems to parallel my feelings
My hope, my doubt
I lost faith and love
And even myself
No beauty can hide me of this
No love can heal me now
I am bleeding
And no one sees
Only certain special people
Seem to care and see
I am sick
And am different
Abnormal you see
Something very similar
The sky grows more dark
And the moon seems to fade
My spirit giving up almost
Just a flicker of life
I feel the tears stream down
As I fear this of myself
I want nothing more to help it
Be there and guide it
I want to escape like the moon
I want to run so fast no one can see
The beauty will come later
When no one wants to see
I stare up seeing all
Lost of everything
I hurt inside and cry
Knowing I am the same
Tears keep flowing
I wonder who all cares!
Who all is missing this?
Who knows and doesn’t care?
The moon fades back to normal
To the sight everyone is used to
It has to change and hide its beauty
That way no one can hurt it
I cry. There is not left to do one thing
I sing. Forgetting that I am not well
I hurt. My heart aches and I am lonely
I smile. Knowing that I just saw the blood
Nothing can hold me
Nothing can stop me
I am of myself
Becoming what no one knows or sees
The blood fills me up
And I forget to say goodbye
I lose myself in a world nonexistent
And fall. Fall deep into the blood
The blood that brought pain
The blood that brought shame
The blood that seems to haunt me
The blood that will forever be mine
It is gone as quickly as it came
And my breathing fades back into nonexistence
The tears keep falling
From beauty and from sadness
I wish I was there
I want to be there
I long to be something
And be so admired
I am the blood that fills in the moon
I am the stench that no one sees
I am the person that will be strong
I am the one to bring strength and healing
Only certain special ones
Can see the beauty that I see
Only they can see the beauty behind blood
I am searching for this person
The only one who can see me
The only one that cares
I search but never find
I sigh and know that nothing will come
The brightness comes back
And soon no one will ever be able to tell
The beauty that is hidden
From everything and everyone
The beauty that goes unseen
Is the beauty that’s worth finding
The blood that lasts and brings life
Is the blood worth searching for
My life is a search
A constant struggle of beauty
As my blood drains out
I become what they want me to be
The glow is shining now
Overtaking the blood and moon
As it grows the beauty disappears
And everyone is missing it
All have gone away
The pure white
Takes over
The dirty red
Washing, cleansing one might say
And the tears keep falling
I have lost my voice
How is it that something like this
Is something that is and becomes me?
The symbolism of blood
And the Holy white on a special day
Yes. It can take my blood away
It can clean me of this horror
The red. The hurt. The trauma.
All the bad and not the good
It all floods back
Overtaken. Overwhelmed.
It is a power
A force controlling me
It took me over
Eating me and everything good inside
This sickness
This fright and fear
And death is so very near
The blood is the thing
The blood is to wash me
Cleanse me of these things
The color that stains
And brings me distress
I lose and die
I stop fighting and die
They have killed me
They are the ones guilty of this deed
The ones who have hurt me
And those who cannot see
Blind to the beauty that I see
And they haunt me
They follow me
Draining my blood
And using it for them
Stealing my beauty and destroying their own
What a horrid thought
What a nasty sight
I want to inject them
Give them the pain they caused
The blood is numbing
Only there for a moment
If one is not watching
No one can see it
The beauty I see lies deeper than this
The beauty I need is the heart and the mind
I will not back down
I will hold my ground
The beauty in blood
That no one sees
The blood that brings pain
And misery
The truth is as faced
The hurt is not healed
And the pain is revisited
Masked over, sealed
I cry out of pain
And of happiness
And hate
How can such love and beauty bring pain and hate?
I want nothing else
But to drop and forget
No. I can’t. This is me.
This pain is my life now
The blood in the moon is the soul in myself
Beauty unseen and undescribed