Sitting here in a space

That is masked by emptiness

With an illusion of happiness,

I stand in desperate need of somewhere to escape,

Escape the pain

That has the stories

In my life crawling out through a tunnel

Moving further and further to the light,

In hope to elevate to graphics of what is a loving heart

But, in reality it’s saddening to see, it is merely

Something disturbing,

See God has a plan for me

Something so glorifying that

I’m ready to rewrite my old stories

But, the plan I chose told a different story,

 It was filled with the thoughts of the misery laid here in my heart

I try to scream out

“Dear God hear my cry”

But, all I’m saying is

“God don’t love my heart”

See I’m sinking

Further and further to the deeps of the abyss

Where the souls are crying

“Dear God hear our cry!”

Yet the evil one is saying

“Ha! God don’t love y’all heart”

Still with falsified hopes to have my cry heard

I soon realize everything has gone black inside,

Blinded with darkness in my thoughts

I start to feel lost

The things surrounding me start to

Disappear one by one

Escaping the grips of reality,

Now I’m locked in a box

Hands held together

With desperate need to move an inch

I’m sent to a restricted atmosphere

Of shackles that destroy the skin of my body

Shackles that destroy the conscience of my wrists

One by one every piece of me feels trapped

Like I’m a rodent in a cage who has just been caught

By the predator hungry for every limb of the body

And every time I start to regain my personality I

Move further and further away from

Reality

Memories I once had regain priority,

Survival instincts regain superiority

Everything I had control over,

Gone

The remains of my Christianity,

Buried

Knowing right from wrong,

Lost

The feeling when touching someone,

Empty

The dehydrated fetus inside me,

Dead

The food meant for my body,

Drowned

Drowned in a pool full of fluids that disperse

To the sewage of what is pieces of the outside world

And with all these things around me vanishing

 I began to notice that faint light where

I once cried out “Dear God hear my cry”

Moving closer and closer to the point

Where I could see an image,

An image of the plan that was meant for me,

A plan that had my life

Full of obstacles,

Yet in the end

I held Gods promised glory with a fragile grip

While my head laid on a bed full of riches

And in seeing this imagery I

Walked away with a smile

In knowing that my heart,

The heart that was once hoping to escape because it was broken

Will soon be fixed,

Fixed

By the blessed blood

That ran through my

Savior’s vein

Piecing each fragment of my

Heart back together,

And in the end I

Can once again proclaim,

That Jesus Christ is

My Saviors name