Broken Home (If You Really Knew Me)
Background: I wrote this during a time where I was hurt, confused and lost. Each stanza just came to me. It wasn’t until I finish writing and read over it that I know what I was writing about. I feel as if God put me in the position where I was lost and hurt so I could write my life out on paper.
I live in a broken home
Six kids, same mom, different daddies
I belong with the four that belong to him
She belongs to him & she belongs to him,
Six belong to her
Three daddies in total
A mother in all
I live in a broken home
Badly beaten as a child
Left unknown too many
Bounced from house to house
Problems here & there
Then people in uniform intervene
No more mother
Just a father & four sisters
Five people who don’t speak or say much to each other
Locked up in our rooms
It’s like living with ghost
I live in a broken home
Curious about his preference
Wondering if he has been like this even while he married your mother
Could it be why I live in a broken home?
I live in a broken home
She did the unthinkable, she did the unforgivable
Trust….how?
How can I trust her after all of that?
The one who birth me
At times I sometimes believe that I do,
Until trust is gone once again
In a broken home where her man is before her kids & family
Niggas over us all the time
Why him & not us?
I live in a broken home
Where I’m the odd one out most of the time,
Always forgotten,
The one who may never amount to nothing
The one who been manipulated, used, walked upon
Isolated from everyone
The one still searching for ANY form of love
From the ones that are supposed to love her
& from those that don’t even known her
I live in a broken home
Where she is pretty, but thinks less of herself
Where she has big dreams but no hope
Because she’s bounded by fear
The wall she has built blocks the heart that they can’t see,
The one that no one thinks she has
I live in a broken home
Where she is beautiful & known by many
But she is……..
The one with a snake as a tongue
Venomous words is her drug of choice
I live in a broken home
Where they see her as lazy
She knows more, understands more than they do
Probably most affected through it all
The one that stays in prayer
The one that covers our family
Without her this broken home would have fallen a long time ago
I live in a broken home.