I've always wanted love

But now I don't want to want it.

I always craved touch 

But dislike it when you touch me.

I've always wanted loyalty

And to be treated like I'm royalty

But when you put me on a throne 

I feel more like recoiling.

I'm changing.

And sometimes I feel I'm losing myself 

It's been so long since I've loved someone else.

I've never been the type to put my feelings on the shelf

But when you want to be loved you have to do it yourself.