I wish I was harsh
like the denial letter from a school.
I wish I was bitter
like a friend scorned.
I wish I could sting
even just half as bad as that whiskey you constantly down.
I wish I was rough
so rough in fact, sandpaper would yield to me.
I wish I was severe
as my jawline.
I wish I was austere
almost as much as a military sargent.
I wish all those things and many more
so one day I'll have the courage to push you away for the final time.