Convo With the Thick Girl in the Mirror!

Because im just not pretty enough, I stand here in the nude trying to love each handle, Each roll that i created i count the marks in hopes that one day ill find one less Maybe just maybe they are getting lighter Some days i hear "your really not that big" on others "just work out a little" well which one is it? Should i love me for what i am or am i too big? make up your damn mind! Confused with mens "i think your beautiful" 's and "Come on let me hit"'s I guess thats why you shouldn't be with any one until you love you! But hell even skinny women think there fat! In that case no woman in the world would be in a relationship! So here i am poking and pulling on what i think needs to disappear! Saying what i think is to big...if i could just lose a little here! Fuck! Why cant i just feel beautiful in my own skin? Fuck a size 3! Whats wrong with a thirteen? There self esteem is most likely just as low! Some times im just too light skinned and on others im burnt! Im dreaming of the one day that i stand in this here mirror and say "Damn I look Good" But lets be honest! No matter how much a woman stands there in the mirror and says that...the way she feels inside just cant possibly match! I think low self esteem is contagious! When your around another woman and she talks positively about the one body part she loves....its all hell when she leaves! All you can think about is why hers looks so good and yours is...well...yours! And you know shes at home doing the same shit! Tryna figure out why you have the perfect ass and she doesnt! Im sick and tired of girls that are thick feeling fat! Fuck that! The world needs thick women or we wont have sexy curves to look at! So Damn it Im cute! Fuck those magazines Fuck the models and Fuck the world! Im a Goddess and imma strut all this thickness cuz its what God gave me, and he dont make no mistakes! Convo completed! Now imma put on my clothes and Vogue!