he says he hasn't had that much
but he'll just use it as a crutch
and spend all day drinking away pretending that it doen't affect us.
but it does
and when we call grandma he'll be drinking it off,
because he knows that she'll cry
because to her every time is the last time before she dies.
and I know, I know that it's hard becasue his heart's made of glass
and he's had a rough past
but it's no excuse!
because we have too
and it's true that we leaned on other things to keep us afloat, but we should've had you!
but I'm just mad
because I know that you loved us with all that you had.
I'm not being fair, because you were always there,
but I had too much pride to admit I'd been harsh
and you made us call her every week, even when her pain was at it's peak and thus,
you needed that crutch, because we didn't have much
and Hay and I were so caught in ourselves that you didn't have us.
and we have no excuse,because we should've seen all along that you needed something else to lean on
and it should have been us.
because I know that love is stronger than any drug.
So I hope that you know that we do.
we both love you
with all our hearts.
It just took time and a rhyme to realizethat you've had too much