Don't Speak
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This morning
I saw you
I saw you talking
And laughing
And smiling
With all your friends around you
And I started to cry
Tears dripping down my throat
And into my heart
I cried because I am selfish
I cry because I want to talk with you
I cry because I want to laugh with you
And smile with you
And cry with you
I cry because I am afraid.
I know that the salty tears inside
Will drown me
Because I know that I am too afraid
To talk and smile and to laugh
With you
If you really knew me
Or saw my salty tears
Then you would be afraid too
You would leave me
To wallow in my pain alone
Or would you try to help me?
Maybe once you saw what was behind the plastered smile
You'd want to help
And I think
That's what I am afraid of most
I'm afraid of you finding out
Who I really am
Because if you did
You would only cause me all the more pain
To watch you
Being dragged down by someone like me
And so next time I see you
I'll be sure to stand silently
That fake smile plastered on my face
In tragic silence
Hoping I truly can
Swallow my words,
Banish them inside
Just so that I don't speak