Drive

I place the key in the ignition,


I put the car in drive


and press the gas pedal


but I go no where.


 


I open my mouth,


and move my lips,


I push air out


but I don't make a sound.


 


I throw my hands out,


I'm crying out for help,


I wave my hands around,


but still I recieve no assistance.


 


I stare at the cieling,


it's been hours and I'm still thinking,


questioning reality,


but still I have no answer.


 


I'm looking at all the facts,


I see the truth,


but I don't believe the truth.


The truth isn't real and neither is reality.


 


The car finally starts,


you can hear my screams,


my arms are visible from your distance.


But still I have no help.


 


I don't understand


so I'm questioning it.


Why give me such false hope?


Why desert me when all I needed was your influence?


 


Without you there


I had a hard time


but I can evolve from the lack of you


I will make it just fine.


 


The car drives down the road,


with my hands occupied by a steering wheel,


and my voice mute,


I look in my rearview mirror and I see you.


 


Now that I am silent.


Now that there are no longer tears,


Now when I'm whole


you come along to tear me down again.


 


I hit the accelerator


and I drive as quickly as I can.


I need to get away from you


but I need you.


 


I sit alone


in a deserted place.


I gaze at the clouds


until I've seen your face.


 


I notice you beside me


but only from long ago.


You were my hero,


but I was blinded.


 


I grab the keys,


and still without sound


I drive into the night


away from these distant memories.

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