Dulce et Decorum Est (How sweet it is)

Oh sweet, how sweet

To be me but not

 

Judgment belongs to someone else,

It belongs to plastic innocuous speech,

Flowing into a vacant House that is yours, theirs-mine

Mellifluous like the honey which drips onto the tongue licked off by opulence

 

It’s sweet, the blankness, it’s sweet

The stars- nebulous and melting through my pounding heart

It’s so sweet- terribly sweet

 

And the day repeats as if the next,

static remains on blurred television screens,

excerpts and fragments of Statues grace the frontier,

And I who remain, follow a false ideal

A stone presence, a paragon of nothing

 

Because I wanted to start afresh- to empty my own onto a dreamless nightmare

By I found nothing- an empty space in an empty land- filled with empty smiles that mock crystal lined cages

But in all that kills there remains, gratuitous me

Smiling

Laughing

Grinning

Screaming

Happy

Genuine

 

Someone else’s vision in my eyes, spectacles with no lenses for me

For Justice, inculcated me with words that run down

Because I am content with knowing everything (nothing)

Of how I was to be me if there is me everywhere

 

Oh sweet, how sweet

To be me but not

This poem is about: 
Me

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